anxiety can be overwhelming.
i woke up feeling anxious and extremely overwhelmed.
i start counseling again today and i hate starting.
it just makes me so anxious to have to unpack everything all over again to someone new.
i am okay with counseling, kind of excited about it to be honest because it's a very healthy outlet. but the starting has always made me very uneasy.
then i realized three things.
1. i feel this way about everything new. always have since i was a kid. i've never told any parents about it really, just dealt with it. because of that all firsts are usually terrible for me. first day of school, first day of work, first day traveling, first day in a new place. i literally worry myself sick but in the end, it's always okay.
2. i always start and i'm proud of that. some people find it impossible to even start. they allow the apprehension they feel to hold them back. if that's you, there is nothing wrong with how you feel but try your best to start. let someone know how you feel so they can help you. you'll never grow if you don't go.
3. i need counseling for this very reason. being overwhelmed continuously is tiresome. prayerfully, one day, with god, continued support from loved ones and mental health services, i will completely conquer this anxiety.
in the meantime, i'll take it one day, one moment at a time and i'll always push myself to start. #godisfaithful#forwardmoving #blankcanbe... #depression#anxiety
This song was just in my head 30 minutes ago and then it comes on...
i'm already sick now i gotta add being in my feelings on top of that.
i just can't today...😔 #music#janetjackson#pandora#inmyfeelings