Finn is done with surgery and in recovery now. the news we got was not what we wanted to hear. they found a large mass that they were unable to remove as it’s wrapping itself around his stomach. biopsies have been taken and we should have those results by wednesday. it seems likely to be cancerous but depending on what type, we still have hopes of trying to treat it and also manage his ibd. it’s just going to be a day by day thing for now. there’s some concern about him healing from the surgery because his stomach lining was very hard to cut through where a normal lining wouldn’t have been. they’ll be watching him closely. he has a g-tube going to his stomach so he can get his meds and nutrition. everything else looks normal. all his bloodwork, his esophagus, his intestines, his gastropexy, it’s all good. every test has been good. so on to the next battle. if it’s a treatable cancer, then we’ll try to beat it. we’ll keep fighting until we win or until finn says enough or until the decision is not in our hands. my oldest daughter had a very aggressive and rare brain tumor diagnosed in 2015. she’s been tumor free now for 3 years. we’re not giving up hope for finn. if you don’t hear from me for a bit, please don’t worry. i just need to absorb this. i’ll share once i know more and we have a plan. thank you for being there for us and for everything ❤️
I don’t have a lot of words today. my heart and my stomach are in knots but i’m trying to keep only good thoughts in my mind. finn should be heading into surgery some time after 10am (central) but i don’t know exactly when yet. sending loads of positive energy to my big bear and to the medical team at @okstateu 💙✨ i’ll keep you all posted through stories as i get news.
one week from today is finn’s 6th birthday and i look forward to celebrating that with him being here at home with his family ❤️
just for fun, slide to see some snapshots of finn as a floofy little cub hamming it up for the camera 🐻🥰
thank you for your continued love and support 🙏🏼
Bird picture finn story...
the vet just called with an update. finn has learned how to open his door and let himself out 🤣🤣🤣 omg this made me laugh so much!! that’s my bear! 🙌🏼😆 the door has a round flat circular knob that has to be pulled out and turned. i had a hard time getting it open!! this guy has always been a mastermind at escape 😂 we had to turn a gate around when he learned how to work the latch. this news totally made my day ☺️🐻💪🏼
Happy 20th birthday to eva, my black beauty 🖤 i haven’t had a chance to get new pictures of the horses with all that’s going on, plus we’ve had the muddiest winter in history i think 😩 this photo is from 2 years ago. eva’s mane has grown down to her shoulder now and she’s looking as beautiful as ever. today is going to be a sunny 60°f day and i’m going to go pamper my sweet girl, take her lots of treats and of course let her have her traditional birthday beer (started from the summer she quit sweating and got a guinness a day to try to restart the 💦😳) 🍺🎂💗
in a world where some days all we hear seems to be of sadness, pain, hate and division, acts of kindness are so important and so much appreciated. i can’t stop tearing up at the thought of people from all over the globe, from all different walks of life, coming together to support one big, sweet bear dog that they only know through pictures and my ramblings. since my post yesterday morning, finn’s contributions have gone from $5k to $8.7k. i can’t thank you enough for loving and rooting for my big guy 🙏🏼
i just got a call from the hospital. finn ate well and has perked up again 😁 i’m so relieved that he’ll go into surgery monday with some strength back. i know it’s a bit early in the day but cheers to eva going strong into her 20’s, finn eating again and to all of you for your positivity and love 🥂❤️
I was so excited for today’s post. i’d been keeping my joy quiet because i didn’t want to jinx things. today i was supposed to bring finn home as he’d been doing so well. my girls and i drove to oklahoma yesterday and planned to celebrate finn’s homecoming and looked forward to watching the reunion of the crew. surgery had been put off since he was eating and generally doing really well. the vet had even told me he was “causing chaos in the icu” with his barking and energy.
when i arrived, i waited in the lobby for the student who has been taking such wonderful care of finn. as soon as i saw her face i knew something was wrong. she told me that finn had gone downhill since the morning and wouldn’t be able to go home after all. all the air went out of me. another punch to the stomach 😔
i’m heartbroken. my chest literally hurts. finn is now scheduled for surgery on monday. when i went back to the icu to visit with my baby, he still got up, still wagged his tail and was happy to see me but he was not feeling well.
i had taken down the link to my paypal thinking we had received enough ($5k) to lighten our burden. now our estimated bill for our time at osu is $14.5 to $15.5k. this is in addition to what we had previously spent on so many tests and vet visits. if you feel you would like to help out towards finn’s treatment, the link is back up and any amount will be very much appreciated. finn is still fighting to live. he wants to get better. we hope this surgery will give us the answers we need to make it happen.
i’m so tired physically and emotionally but your words and heartfelt feelings help boost me back up. thank you so much for your support 🙏🏼
Made for the spotlight 🐥🌟🐥
in their previous relationships, these two were both the dominant bird. together, they’re both equals. each one can be both sweet and super sassy. some days they want space from each other and then other days they’re the biggest cuddle bugs. they both love me, sometimes preferring to hang with me over each other 🤷🏻♀️ i find their relationship so fascinating. animal relationships aren’t always as simple and straightforward as some might think 💙
finn is holding steady. it was very hard to leave him yesterday as he stood at the glass door barking at me. i’ll go back to see him next weekend. i’m overnighting some of my and my husband’s shirts so he can have our scent with him in the meantime.
i’ve come down with a cold or something 🤧 hoping i can get through it before heading back to osu 🤞🏼
I’m not even sure where to start. after my last story post, the dm’s have been just pouring in. thank you to all the ones of love and support. there truly were an overwhelming amount of these ❤️ those few who sent the judgmental ones, please just leave. you aren’t here. you don’t see my dog. you don’t know all the details. this is an incredibly difficult time for my family. i share because i hope it might help someone else and because i know how much most of you love the crew. i feel deep down that all the positive energy you guys send him helps and i appreciate it so much. i am doing my best to make choices where there sometimes aren’t many good ones to choose from.
in case you missed my story, finn had a big setback friday. he has multiple bacterial infections going on. one of these is resistant to almost all antibiotics. his prognosis was changed to poor. we (our whole family) went to osu yesterday to spend time with finn. sydney can’t go near him however since she is immunosuppressed herself. i have stayed here in stillwater and am spending a couple of nights. i was ready to let finn tell me if he’d had enough and wanted us to let him go. that is not the message i’m getting. he’s not in good shape but he’s still fighting and so we’ll continue trying everything we can. since i’ve been here, he’s doing a little better. the last antibiotic we are trying seems to be working. he ate a little yesterday and this morning and rallies a bit of energy when he first sees me (slide for video). it wears him out and he sleeps after but it shows me that he still has a will to live. so we will keep fighting 🙏🏼
They’ve postponed surgery to monday but not because finn isn’t doing well. actually the opposite. he is eating some and improving so they want to wait a little longer to see if the g-tube will even be necessary. they’ll reassess on monday i believe. the surgery is still needed to fix the stomach and take a biopsy. it would be so wonderful though if he can eat on his own and not by tube.
i requested a picture of him and i will admit, it kinda deflated me when i saw him. he’s so thin and still so sick. being away and hearing how well he was doing, i put an unrealistic image in my mind. he’s still got a long way to go to get back to his healthy self. thank goodness he’s not in pain at least. they did say he pulled out his iv line multiple times yesterday as his energy level has increased. that made me so happy to hear 😆🤗 i have to remind myself to be patient with his healing. it’s going to be a long road. i look so forward to the day these two are out there wrestling again. finn always from his signature fighting position on his back 😂🐻🥰
i’m going to go see my bear tomorrow. i will give him lots of hugs and kisses from all of you and let him know that people from all over the world are pulling for him. we are almost to $4k in finn’s paypal which will cover most of his surgery cost. i am so moved by your generosity, love and desire to help our boy ❤️🙏🏼
I am so happy to be able to give you this update today. finn does not seem to be in pain, his hypersalivation is way down (still drooling but nothing like before, he ate a little (very little but still!!) and he’s getting some energy and s***k back. just the fact that he’s not in pain is such a massive relief for me. it was heart wrenching to watch him like that. they are going to monitor him today and see if he’s stable enough for surgery tomorrow and if not then they’ll look at doing it monday.
i wanted to clarify about his stomach. he is not bloating. finn had a gastropexy done when he was 18 months old. it was to reduce his chances of bloat. his stomach is lying further back (towards the tail) than it should be due to the tacking it seems. i did some research and found a case with a great dane who was having vomiting several hours after eating (same as finn). they treated him by changing to a hydrolized diet but it wasn’t working. in an ultrasound they discovered the stomach and spleen to be off. a revision surgery was done and it resolved all the dog’s symptoms. our vet doesn’t think this surgery will resolve everything going on with finn but are hoping that it will help at least in his treatment. finn is almost 6 so there has been a lot of time since his surgery. i believe the stomach being off probably triggered his ibd but that’s just my own guess. when they do go in to fix the stomach, they will also take a deeper biopsy and put in a gtube for feeding and meds. i feel hopeful 🙏🏼
i am in tears over all the love and support we are seeing and feeling over here. i wish finn knew how many are pulling for him all around the world. i am sure he feels it in some way. i can’t thank you guys enough ❤️🐻
They had to remove finn’s tube yesterday because of the infection. we are hoping to get him in a good enough condition to where they can go in surgically and fix his stomach position. it’s devastating to think that a surgery (gastropexy) we did years ago as a positive, preventative thing could now be the cause of his problems. gastropexy is a life saving procedure that helps to prevent bloat and torsion of the stomach. i would do it again if i were to get a dog that is prone to bloat. what happened with finn’s is not common.
many of you have so generously requested that i allow you to help and contribute as the vet bills have piled on and are in the 5 figure range now. while it’s hard for me to accept, i understand and appreciate it. i’ve also contributed or wanted to for others in this community when they’ve gone under hard times. it’s what makes us a big family here. i have made a separate paypal for finn and will add the link in my bio. i will remove the link once we come close to what his hospital expenses are. please please please do not feel any pressure to donate. we will continue to cover all costs regardless. i appreciate so much that you love finn and want to help us whether it’s through prayers, healing energy, well wishes or a small contribution. we love you guys. my heart is hurting so much and i miss my big bear. i had dreams about him all night. i just want to bring him home and have our crew whole again 🙏🏼
Snow queen and her little lashes 👁
if you saw our stories this weekend you know that i had to take finn in to the er. i had taken him to my vet last week because there was some pus coming out from his tube site. i was told a little pus is normal and there was no abscess and that i should just keep it clean and dry.
well, sunday finn got pus filled patches in his neck skin. after asking in a group and speaking with a human dr, i decided it needed immediate attention as it looked like an infection. the er vet told me we should head to a university hospital right away. a good friend offered to go with me for support so i picked her up and we went straight to osu (oklahoma). it was a 2 hour drive but i’m so glad i got him there.
finn has a bad infection. it’s being treated and cultures have been sent off. he also has a tongue ulcer that won’t heal and continues to grow. they have done all new x-rays, ultrasounds and tests. they are trying their best to figure out this puzzle. finn doesn’t respond to the drugs the way most ibd dogs do. one thing they have noticed is that his stomach is in an abnormal position. they say this was caused by the gastropexy (tacking of stomach) that was done when he was 18 months old. not sure if this could have triggered his ibd or could be the cause of all his problems.
we have tested for everything under the sun. i promise you, we haven’t missed a thing. we are using cbd, slippery elm and manuka honey (high umf). he is being fed a hydrolized food. we may try a home cooked meal that’s easy on the digestive system. we don’t want to add too many supplements as it only confuses the picture more. finn has been in the icu at osu since sunday. i just spoke with them and despite all the meds finn still seems miserable. i was hoping he’d be home tomorrow but that may not happen now.
i am very much regretting not having pet insurance at this moment. i’ll be looking into it now for my others. let me know if you have any you’ve worked with and like. thank you 🙏🏼