it was july 21, 2015 - first day of our pilot shoot at a rundown suburban studio in mumbai - when i first got into your shoes. met a lot of new people that day but all my mind could process was that i needed to step up and find my bearings playing someone who in equal measure was larger than life & almost iconic (in our heads) yet far from the values or moral compass of the person who i am. if i was to be completely honest, those were unsteady feet.
we wrapped our pilot shoot and went our separate ways until the show was commissioned and we finally had a shoot date, april of 2016. in those eight months, i found you. bit by bit. on a friday night over a drunken conversation with a friend at a bar, i found within me the tone which i needed for you. i knew shivaay couldn't sound like me. i can be vanilla and factual which sso couldn't be. i decided to keep it.
there would be endless days when i'd ruminate about how you would walk, how you'd sit, how would you hold a phone. who on earth would hold the phone a mile away from the mouthpiece, eh? ;-) you gave me the courage to take chances cause i knew from the very beginning there could be no safe or right way to play you.
a lot of you was handed over to me by your ingenuous creators - the wonderful writing team, the styling, direction & photography units. and then a great deal was found on the studio floors whilst jamming with my terrific ensemble. through you, i found a magical partnership with your jodidaar who was the complete khidkitod foil to the tadibaaaz you - sc ❤️ also found a protective older brother within me whilst jamming with the fabulous o bros - kj & lee 😘 learnt so much & sometimes left unsolicited advice playing big brother, comrade & boss to your extended familia. shrenster, manc, siddz & naman 💞
it has been so humbling to have experienced all the love & recognition in the form of awards, letters & gifts which the audiences & the industry showered on you, from such close quarters. a lot of that overflowed on to me.
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