A month ago mr m and i accepted job offers in london and i’ve taken this past week to take stock of my last 8 years in paris, to reflect on the lessons i’ve learned that i hope to carry with me, and look towards what’s coming ahead.
according to past experiences and to the melancholy people portray upon me explaining i’m leaving the place i call home. i should be having some sort of existential crisis, and mourning my my departure, when in reality i am simply sighing with relief.
i’ve reached a point to find myself embracing the small amount of wisdom that has come with my age and the time i’ve lived in paris and like the cliche goes, the only thing i have a deeper understanding of is how much i do not know, and how much i pretended to know, but you know what? i’m just starting to be at peace with that.
if there is one thing you learn as you get older, it’s that no one knows what they are doing, everyone is winging it and that life is really about how you handle the unknown, and being resilient in spite of failing again, and again and again.
through this process i’ve learned:
1. your expectations are the only ones you need to meet
2. there is no trick or shortcut that is better than good work.
3. be fearless
4. don’t spend time with people who don’t treat you well
5. the only thing you can’t buy is time-time is precious
6. be different-be proud of who you are, and don’t care if people like it.
that being said, there is so much i wish i knew when i was 20 that i know now that would have saved me time, money and often a great deal of pain. but, then again that’s what makes life so special, the process, the learning, the struggle.
thank you paris, for adopting me as your most flamboyant daughter. for allowing me to have built my self from the ground up, to understand my worth and to value my character without shame.
i came here as a new little seed and today 8 years later i am leaving as a bloomed flower.
i was never french or parisian but for sure i never felt out of place.
and happy woman’s day iron lady!
merci paris, -