Three years has passed with so many emotions caught inside of every moment spent without you that i can hardly choke it all back as i try to make good of the day that commemorates the most painful and impacting event of my life, so i'm goin' on vacation to run wild and free with a laughter i know you'd smile hearing. everyone who has ever met you was loved by you because you may have been many things, but nothing defined who you were, how you were, more than the way you could hug the bad out of every and anyone. nothing passes in our lives, the good, the bad, the ugly, that we don't wish you were here to share it with, but since you aren't, i will share you with every single person i meet by showing undying kindness and unconditional love. i will show your bright personality filled with generous servings of nurturing warmth through the same way you showed me: witty laughter booming with clever notes that sings a love song so inviting that it could warm even the coldest corners of a person's hurt. so, here i go, letting the memories of you set fire to the coldness felt in your absence. i love you, raggedy, i couldn't have asked for a better mother to show me how to be me, to be free, to give and show love so freely.