Ehm so i haven't posted again in about a week i guess? i feel so sorry about that, but i was laying in bed and i could hardly move cause i was feeling that ill. it was hell buuuut i could watch #criminalminds all day every day sooo that was fun. and i'm feeling much better now! physically. mental not at all. i've had another breakdown and i was super suicidal and i still kinda am but it's fine, i'll be alright. i promise.👼🏼
and the fact that @ajcook captioned this with #loveyourself helps me so much right now! due to being sick i've lost six pounds and i kinda started liking the feeling of emptiness, control over what i ate and dropping pounds again and i really don't wanna go back to anorexia. i wouldn't survive that a second time. so somehow aj makes me feel a whole lot better, i dont even know if that makes like any sense at all? but what matters is that she does.