We got some relatively good news today. a consultant called to go through ezra’s post mortem results and confirmed his leukaemia wasn’t caused by anything hereditary. there is history of rare blood disorders very similar to ezra’s in the family so this was a big concern for us. he explained when babies are growing in the w**b everything happens very fast including making blood cells. as they develop, the growth slows down, however the bone marrow in ezra didn’t slow down. it’s heartbreaking that ‘just bad luck’ happened to us, but it’s a slight relief to know there is nothing i caused or anyone could have done differently to save him. i miss him so much every second of every day. our gorgeous baby boy 💙
20 244 2 days ago
We prayed, god answered. •

it’s been a long dark road but we are so excited to finally announce that our 2nd rainbow baby will be arriving early december 🌈🙏🏼
133 1,026 2 weeks ago
Happy 7 months in heaven valentina💗🦋 it’s been by far the hardest task to have to live this life without you physically here. i miss you with everything in me. i love you more each day that passes by. i imagine the day we’ll get to meet again and i just can’t wait to run to you, to hug you, to kiss you, to love you and never have to let go ever again. thank you so much for helping me every single day, for sending the right people my way, for the little signs that encourage me to take that step forward. you know exactly when to send the help. thank you for this week, especially. i hope you are proud of mommy. mommy loves you & will honor your life every step she takes forward. continue to guide mommy x daddy and pray for us always. we love you so much. mommy x daddy adore you mi chiquita hermosa. you are loved, you are missed, you are remembered...always mi valentina👼🏼🥰🦋🌈💗 i love you forever❤️ #babyloss #bereavedmama #healingjourney #grief #pail #angelbaby #angelmama #mylifeunexpected #brokenheartsstillbeat
16 108 21 hours ago
Packed away ezra’s wardrobe today. 4 months after his birthdate. i was going to do it out of anger a few months back and martin persuaded me to wait and i’m so glad i did. he was such a spoilt baby 💙
18 147 Yesterday
“you can’t have a rainbow without a little rain.” tonight our baby girl painted us a bright, double rainbow. i find so much peace knowing this is a sign that she’s all good up there, flying high with the angels. 🌈💕👼🏻
16 149 2 weeks ago
Today is a day that i never would have imagined. today, alongside our families, we laid our sweet baby girl to rest. no parent should ever have to bury their child, but sometimes that's just what happens. so now, that's part of our story. we aren't just adam and katie, we are adam and katie, dad & mom to sylvia katherine. we are dad & mom to our baby who is an angel in heaven. so baby girl, we loved you from the first day and we'll love you until the end. until we meet again, somewhere over the rainbow. 🌈⁣ {link in bio}

"little dove i love you so,⁣
but i know you had to go. ⁣
so spread your wings and fly my love, ⁣
soar above the world my dove, ⁣
paint the sky in indigo,⁣
and i'll search the sky for your rainbow."
-unknown
45 185 2 weeks ago
𝑂𝑢𝑟 𝑛𝑒𝑤 𝑙𝑜𝑔𝑜 👼 😍
#ourangelcollection
2 3 10 minutes ago
If i don’t tell you enough, thank you so much for choosing me. #allsmiles #angelbaby
1 12 11 minutes ago
Happy 6th birthday joseph, daddy loves and misses you soo much. not a moment goes by that your not on my mind. i cant hold you in my arms so i hold you always in my heart. i love yu joseph.

#happybirthdayinheaven #daddylovesyoujoseph #angelbaby #daddytoanangel #mommytoanangel #footstepsinmyheart
24 53 1 hour ago
✨productos usados✨

✨cejas✨
@bhcosmetics studio pro ultimate brow palette •
✨ojos✨
use como primer @lagirlcosmetics pro conceal en creamy beige
selle con @pacificabeauty perfect lotus universal powder
para hacer el contornó de mis ojos use el bronzeador de @physiciansformula butter bronzer
deliniado con @nyxcosmetics epic ink liner en n***o
use el set de @profusion mixed metals | rose gold
sparkling eyeliner in rose gold
10 color eye & face palette sombra idol para el brilló de mi lagrimal y bajo la ceja
@lorealparis voluminous lash paradise rimel y las postizas son echas por mi •
✨base✨
@elfcosmetics poreless putty primer
@bhcosmetics foundation & concealer 2 para el contornó de la cara
@lagirlcosmetics pro conceal en creamy beige para corregir e iluminar la cara
@covergirl vitalist healthy elixir in soft honey para difuminar entre el contorno y corrector
@physiciansformula butter bronzer para sellar el contornó y bronzear la cara
@thekatvond lock it translucent powder para sellar bajo los ojos levemente
@profusion de nuevo usando el set de mixed metals | rose gold sparkle 10 color eye & face palette el ruvor en color sweetheart para las mejillas y nariz el highlight en visionary en los puntos altos de la cara ☺️☺️ aplique encima el ruvor de @maybelline dream bouncy blush en peach satin
selle el maquillaje entero usando @mariobadescu rose water spray •
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@sephora rouge gel lip liner en rosewood @esteelauder pure color sculpting gloss en flirtacious magenta •

de nuevo si llegaste hasta aquí muchísimas gracias bellezas apreció al por mayor su apoyó 😍

#maquillajedeojos #maquillajenatural #maquillajedeldia #makeuplooks #profusioncosmetics #profusion #affordablebeauty #thelist #muasunder10k #underratedmuas #muaxdiscover #livingforface #faceawards #nyxprofessionalmakeup #yesnyxcosmetics #lagirlcosmetics #glow #pacificabeauty #crueltyfree #elfingamazing #elflove #indoorbeat #babydoll #angelbaby #softglam
5 20 1 hour ago
What makes you happy?⁣
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www.1004photography.com
1 6 1 hour ago
Mother's day has always been difficult for me sincing having draven. this mother's day was extremely special because we got to plant the #succulents for draven and i got this very thoughtful gift/card from my boyfriend's family 🥰 i am eternally #grateful #photography #utah #mothersday #angelbaby #lilac #handmadecard #gardening #2020quarentine #pandemic #lovelife #happylife #happy #follow #truth #outdoor #heartfelt #healing #collegelife ##brulseyproject #draven #acceptance #awakening #innerpeace #utahadventures #community #change #empathy
0 6 2 hours ago
New digital style is out! this lined version is great for those of us who love structure!
please note that the new digital style has not been placed online yet. please pm me for ordering details. much love💕
1 8 2 hours ago
I finally took my first painting class @echogalleries and it was so fun (and super affordable)! tashema was awesome teaching everyone at their own pace while also giving us a license to make it our own. i’m already signed up for another class next week. if you’re local you really should check her out!
#standwithsmall #makeitmarion #supportsmallbusiness
2 21 2 hours ago
This litte sweet pea turned 8 months on the 2nd ! this crazy little girl has just as much energy as big brother &gets into everything ! she is walking assisted & along things, climbing over and on top of things and is even saying new words "yeah" is the day favorite (she sometimes even uses it correctly lol) if only i can freeze time, to keep her little for longer ! stop growing sweet girl💕

#kotah #kokobean #kodibear #littlemamas #smileygirl #angelbaby #mylove #mamaslittlegirl #crazygirl #kodispike #littlesister #littlebabe #growingtofast #hunnybunches #sweetpea #lovebug #mygirl #littlemini
1 25 2 hours ago
Mama put a blanket down & i don’t understandz it but itz cozy so i guess i let it slide dis time 🙄 you win, ma 😴💤

#loveonludo#ludothegoldenpyr#petsofinstagram#pets#aww#cute#goldenretriever#goldenpyreneese#goldenpyr#mixedbreed#dogs#aesthetic#vibe#skyart#cloudy#clouds#cloudaesthetic#angel#angelbaby#mysonshine#babyboy#fluffy
1 9 2 hours ago
Missing you each and every day, my angel 🤍 my words have been a little harder to come by lately with all of the unrest the world is challenging us with — but you are on my mind sun up to sun down, and in my dreams each and every night ✨ i love you to the sun and back, wells.

#angelbaby #angelmama #bohobaby #bohomama #organicbaby #organicmama #myangel #angelinthesky #lifeafterloss #infantloss #infantlossawareness #grievingmama #loveeachother #lovedbyanangel #wellsscotthoover #alexandraandwells
6 61 2 hours ago
💗✨look inspirado en una de mis favoritas @izamxkp 🥰 tuve que recrear uno de sus maquillajes que me encanto 💣 ella se inspiro en un filtro y parecía toda una muñequita 👼🏽 les dejare foto de su maquillaje en mis historias para que lo vean! gracias bella por la inspiración 💕


#maquillajedeojos #maquillajenatural #maquillajesencillo #filtrosinstagram #filtros #muñequita #angel #angelbaby #softglam
3 24 2 hours ago
God gave us you to make our sad world a happier place ❤ #angelbaby#aideybaby#preemie#miracle#youweremeanttochangetheworld
0 29 3 hours ago
I would be lying to u if i told u this was easy if i was okay i’m not okay i got a d&c to remove baby on may 4 and i feel okay some days but the last five days i feel like this i feel exactly how i look... i want things to get easier.. i really do. i haven’t even had the energy to do my makeup for like a week now .. i need to dye my hair so bad my roots are showing but i really don’t give a fuck.. i just want my baby ugh this is so hard... pls pray for me 😢 #sad #brokenheart #miscarriage #pregnancyloss #angelbaby #angelmama
9 9 3 hours ago
Join us today for rainbow baby day. throughout the day there will be a lot of raising awareness, offers, fundraising and some exciting opportunities.
not one to be missed!

#rainbowbabyday #rainbowbabyday2020 #kickscount #rainbowbaby #miscarriage #babyloss #babylossawareness #infantloss #iam1in4 #chasingrainbows #rainbowofhope #rainbowkids #raisingawareness #mumofboys #bereavedmother #angelbaby
1 8 3 hours ago
I thought baby normally takes 4-6 oz per feeding at about 2-month age, but this one can drink up to 8 oz before reaching 3-month old.
這位寶寶妳不到三個月就一餐要喝240ml/8oz,這樣媽媽有點累😴... #mythaitwgirl #0y2m #mylove #mysunshine #babygirl #babyphotography #angelbaby #bigappetite #sheisaeater #breastfeedingmom
0 6 3 hours ago
There’s nothing quite like a mother’s love. ♥️

this was a sweet custom order for a mama and her b***s and her sweet b**e coming in a few short months. she personalized it with all the birthstones and it came out so beautiful! 👩‍👧‍👧🤰🏻

#motherdaughter #sweetnothings #angelbaby #braceletsofinstagram #twinning #twinsies #rainbow #handmadejewelry #handmadewithlove #birthstones #birthstonejewelry
0 5 3 hours ago
I'm secretly dreaming of you and me together at your place, when no one else's around. i really want you to kiss me.
15 103 4 hours ago
🌻 posting resources in my story on how to get in the d**n club and help 🌻
#q***r #queerlove #angelbaby #queerblogger #atxblogger #austintexas #texasblogger #instagood #austinblogger
6 44 4 hours ago
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#imbaby #kaliuchisedit #angelbaby #tofeelaliveep
6 5 4 hours ago
The world sure went screwy when you left it. i know it's a complete coincidence that we entered a global pandemic and crisis of humanity after you died. maybe it's selfish but, in some ways, i'm grateful that i haven't been expected to go back to "normal" life just yet. nobody else has either. the world isn't working quite how it did before. nobody expects it to right now. and that makes things a little bit easier for me. in others ways, fresh grief is way harder right now. grief is already so isolating. it's so lonely. but at least before social distancing, friends could hug me and hold my hand. there's some extra fear. everyone is preoccupied. i don't want you to be forgotten. the whole world is grieving right now. but they're not grieving for you. i join them in their grief. i feel the same heaviness for how this year has unfolded for us all. but my grief for you is a whole other level of pain. nothing else i feel can compare. i can't help but feel that the world would be so much better with you in it. that, somehow, your peaceful nature would spread further than i ever could've dreamed. i wish i could find out. i miss you. i love you. .
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#babyloss #babylossmamas #lossmom #angelbaby #childloss #grief #missingliam #liammarshallsnyder #rsvawareness #infantdeath #infantloss #heartbreak #lifeafterloss #lifeanddeath #cruelworld
24 97 5 hours ago
Happy national corgi day to our baby, tugg in heaven.
not a day goes by that i don’t think about you and how it’s not the same without you.
i love you, my little mean ass.
daddy and i miss you so much. 🐾 ♡

@restroyer
#nationalcorgiday#myfirstlove #angelbaby#corgibutt#halfbasset #tugg#furbaby
1 17 5 hours ago
Today i thought about why i went through such a loss...why my son had to suffer so much. why why why.....no answers.

maybe god had this soul who was going to have a short and difficult life and i was chosen because i wouldn't give up, i would love him despite it all, i would find him beautiful even with the numerous tubes and scars, i would never forget him.
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#bereavement #pain #childloss #grief #dealingwithdeath #angelbaby #bereavedparents #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #childlossawareness #mentalawareness #bereavementsupport #lifeafterloss #grieving #loss #griefjourney #icustories #mentalhealth #griefandloss #healing #love #death #life #heart #infantloss #pregnancyloss #quotes #trachbaby #ngtube #icu
0 2 5 hours ago
Last day of preschool for sir odin james 😭♥️
1 10 5 hours ago
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the first period after miscarriage:
i came across this picture in the internet— my first period after miscarriage kinda felt somewhat like in this picture and much more.
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it had been a month of losing zen- our angel...and just when i was trying my very best to cope with the grief...just when i was trying to heal mentally and physically...there it was...the dreadful first period!!🩸
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i was told it will be heavier & crampier than the regular ones...and boy was that right. my regular periods usually are not heavy so i definitely felt like an open tap- with water running out in full force (sorry for tmi).
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it was not only heavy but the cramps & pain was horrible. again, not a single painkiller or hot water bag helped a bit! well that is just the physical part so far....but emotional & mental part of it was even worse. it was a massive trigger for flashbacks!!
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along with the pain, cramps, sweat, tears, & bleeding came flashbacks—flashback of the day that i wished never existed...of the day that i wished i could erase out of my memory...of the day that reminded me of how i was unable to save my precious baby...of the day i went through a mini labor that ended with pools of blood & tear but no baby! 💔😭
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the flashbacks took me back to square one...it was a reminder of what i had lost...a reminder that i was no longer pregnant...a reminder of broken dreams...a reminder of unanswered prayers! i hated the sight of blood & anything red! 🔴
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but, as i think of it today...i have learned that though the first period after loss was traumatic...it was a sign of healing...it was a sign of hope...it was a sign of possibilities!
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although my first period after miscarriage was filled with hate and pain, i am more than grateful for it now for keeping me safe & healthy. and giving me hope of possibility of recreating life that i once lost. 🌈 👶🏻 #firstperiodaftermiscarriage #periodafterloss
5 27 6 hours ago
Believe me when i tell you this girl is twice as beautiful on the inside as she is on the outside. when i told her yesterday that stella looked just like her, she said “i bet that’s how i’ll know who she is when i see her in heaven!” she makes even the darkest day so much brighter, my little sunshine. ☀️ ❤️
4 49 6 hours ago
Last week, saffron and i cut down some mint, dried and stored it in some empty herb jars. i decided to write '114 mint' on them, in reference to our house number.
during a conversation with my mum, i had my mind completely blown.
now we have lived this house for 2.5 years, we have known about it for nearly 3 years. but have never made the connection with our sweet temperance.
my mum thought the mint number was for temperance's birth date, 11-4!
how have we missed that for 2.5 years?! crazy but so lovely too 😍

#stillborn #anencephalyawareness #anencephaly #stillbirth #mint #114 #11april #housesentfromheaven #temperanceis4 #alwaysourtemperance #babyloss #driedherbs #heavensent #infantloss #pregnancyloss #pregnancyafterloss #rainbowbaby #angelbaby #saffron
2 5 6 hours ago
I just can’t get enough 🤍🥰 #mygirl #blessed #lunaskye #newbornphotography #angelbaby
3 35 6 hours ago
Life is kinda hard right now, very confusing, awaiting outcomes, things that can shake our world in multiple different magnitudes, trying to stay positive. i’ve also been taking pregnancy tests since 2dpo. 😂 we’re at 5dpo now & still negative. what’s the earliest you’ve gotten a positive?
#fertility #fertilityjourney #fertilityproblems #baby #babyloss #babylossawareness #babylosssupport #ectopicpregnancy #ectopicpregnancysurvivor #ectopicpregnancyawareness #1in80 #follow #angelbaby #ttc #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #ttcsupport #hope #infantloss #ivf #iui #hope #rainbowbaby #hsg #hsgtest
0 3 6 hours ago
"babies lost in the w**b were never touched by fear. they were never cold, never hungry, never alone and importantly always knew love." — zoe clark-coates
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and that is a beautiful thought.
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i am reminded again of what a special opportunity i have in creating gifts for our keepsakes that care program. i get to pray for these sweet people who are navigating the world of grief, loss, sickness, or pain as i plan for and paint what i hope will bring them encouragement. i thank the loved ones of these recipients for reaching out with their stories and caring enough to share.
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#twosidesoftherainbow #twosidesoftherainbowshop #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #infantloss #loss #encouragement #angelbaby #miscarriagesupport
2 24 7 hours ago
“just when you think you know love, something little comes along just to remind you how big it really is.” *
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#riverwilder #boymom #mommylife #mommyandson #risforriver #rforriver #river #wilder #naturebaby #angelbaby #2monthsold #newbornphotography #newbornphotoshoot #baby #mommysboy #myson #love #mountainbaby
5 20 7 hours ago
The top measurements are where we lost you 💔 the bottom is where you should be today 😔 5 weeks until due date and yet we will have empty arms #babyloss #angelbaby #heartbroken #babygirl
0 3 7 hours ago
4 47 7 hours ago
A special card for bereaved father’s this father’s day ⭐️ more designs on our etsy shop, link in bio 📧 feel free to message us on instagram and facebook too! peanut and ginge 🧡 ox #fathersday #fathers #day #fathersdaycard #card #rainbowbaby #angelbaby #bareavedfathersday #bareavedfather #bereavedparents #bareavedparent #happyfathersday #personalisedcard #customcard #custom #personalised
0 2 7 hours ago
Heranı bir anı ♥️👶🏼 zaman buldukça onun en güzel hallerini arşivliyorum☺️
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#babylove #angelbaby #babyboy #cutekids #cutekid #bebeğim #oğlum #baby #babycutes #babynest #justbaby #justbabyphoto #happymom #happybabyboy #babycaps #mutlubirkalpbüyütüyorum #sevgilianne #best
#izmit #kocaeli #gölcük #blog #blogger #crunch #kahvesunum #kahve #meyve #meyvetabagi
2 68 7 hours ago
Happy birthday my sweet angel boy. mommy and daddy love you just as much today as we ever have. hard to believe it’s been four years since we saw you, held you and said hello and goodbye all in the same day. not a day goes by where we don’t think of you and what you would have been like. i’m grateful i was able to hold you and love you. i love you nash. thank you for keeping your sister safe and picking her out just for us from you in heaven. #fouryears #angelbaby #iloveyouforever
10 65 8 hours ago
My first family illustration💛 a few imperfections but i’m so pleased winston’s mummy is happy with it! they never got the chance to have a family photo together so to be able to make this for vicky was a privilege❤️ #babylossuk #babyloss #angelmummy #angelbaby #angelbabykeepsakes #angels #lifeafterloss #lfl #graphics #memories #art #digitalprints #griefclub #grief #babyboy #hlsdigitaldesign #hlsdesigns #digitalillustration #familyportraits #digitalportrait
1 6 8 hours ago
We wanted to give a shout out to some of our recent fundraisers and donaters. every donation, big or small, goes towards supporting bereaved parents and we are so grateful that people are parting with their money for us, especially during these peculiar times we live in now. we're really sorry if we've missed anyone, please know it wasn't intentional. we couldn't do what we do without you. a big thank you to:
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eddie whittle for completing a virtual duathlon and raising money for us
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laura chadwick for her donation through our website
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everyone who took part in the 2.6 challenge for us and those who donated to their efforts
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amy harrison for her just giving page in memory of madison
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helen at the love of bookworms for her raffle
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rebecca and ryan for their just giving page in memory of henry
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sarah wild for her donation through the website .
clitheroe rotary club for their donation
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everyone who has been joining in with our pub quizzes
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danielle mcauley for her donation through our website
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charlotte cougill for her donation through just giving
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all of our knitters who donate their time, skills and money to knit for our memory boxes and rainbow baby boxes
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the donations through just giving in memory of faith and hope
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olivia and kurt for their donation in memory of evie
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everyone who has donated items from our amazon wish list or used amazon smile or give as you live
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#weneedyou #smallcharitybigdifference #smallcharity #charity #lancashire #babylossawareness #pregnancyloss #memorybox #keepsake #trisomy13 #stillbirth #stillborn #miscarriage #ectopic #tfmr #earlymiscarriage #latemiscarriage #supportgroup #bereavedparentssupport #bornstillbutstillborn #angelbaby #bereavedparents #babyloss #easyfundraising #eastlancashire #donation #fundraise #fundraising #fundraiser
0 10 8 hours ago
Hi! the name’s charlie, and i’m new here 🐾 i live in kansas city, but i’m originally from south korea. when i was 5 months old some very nice people brought me and my friends to california where i met my mumma (thank you @dpsrescue xo) i love my mum, my squeaks, my snuggs, my clothes, and my naps! let’s be friends! 💕🐕
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#charliethevillagedog #villagedog #rescuedog #goodboy #rescuepup #dogsofinstagram #instapuppy #mommasboy #favorite #doglovers #instadog #doubledews #cute #ears #perfection #love #ivory #browneyes #model #modeldog #doggo #angelbaby #happy #rescuedismyfavoritebreed #endthedogmeattrade #dogsrule #girlsbestfriend #kcmo #dogsofkc
3 18 8 hours ago
#hairstyle #haircolor #hair #haircolorist #fashion #fashionlook #fashionstyle #our_everyday_moments#angelbaby#princesses #kidsstyle #kidsfashion#streetstyle #trendykiddies#babyesofinstagram#babys #babyphotography#babyface#babysmiles #smiles #clickinmoms#fashionblogger #fashiongirl#lovesmootiepie#babymodelsearch#natural_mommies#minimodelfeatures
11 51 8 hours ago
Creating memory items can be so hard sometimes... 💔💙
this adorable bear and pillow went to his forever home today on what would have been his due date, sadly this little one was too precious for this world, as hard as these were to make knowing i have given his mummy and daddy a little bit of comfort to keep a piece of him forever just reminds me of why i do what i do 💕 💙 👼 #babyboy #babymemories #memorybear #preciousgift #angelbaby #special #keepsake
0 4 8 hours ago
Ах, какой прекрасный момент - рождение малыша!👶🏻💖
И как же приятны эти первые хлопоты - приготовление приданного!😍💝
@soski__elegant 😍У нас вы найдёте мнооого интересного для своих деток⤵️⠀
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🍭Эксклюзивные пустышки и бутылочки,
🍭Именные и брендовые держатели для сосок,
🍭Термосы,
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🍭Именные рюкзаки,
🍭Силиконовые грызунки - прорезыватели,
🍭Именные светильники для детской,
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🍭Серебряные именные браслетики,
🍭Серебряные именные булавочки.....и мнооого всего интересного и красивого!👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻🎁🎁🎁
🎁Кстати, здесь вы можете купить не только что - то для себя, но и подобрать отличный подарок будущим мамочкам!👌🏻👼🏻💝💝💝🎁 @soski__elegant
#королевскиепустышки #элегантныепустышки #bibs #avent #соскисостразами #турецкиесоски #соскисосваровски #swarovski #pacifier #pacifierclip #pacifiers #mom #angelbaby #baby #роскошныесоски #пустышки #модныесоски #королевскиепустышки
0 3 8 hours ago
4 36 8 hours ago
Yesterday marked 7 weeks. today was our first ultrasound. baby southers does in fact have a heartbeat 💗 i am feeling a small sense of relief, and hoping that that tiny heart continues to beat. our next ultrasound is in 2 weeks.

this was our first major hurdle. baby is in the right place, is the size he/she is expected to be at this stage, and has a heartbeat.

yet i still feel like i’m just holding my breath. i am certain this is due in part to my anxiety feeding me thoughts of doubt. i’m not sure i’ll be able to fully breathe until we’re in the second trimester. but i’m hopeful that we’ll make it there this time.

my anxiety has been nearly unmanageable lately. it’s why i’ve been a little absent the past week or so. i am struggling big time. i’ll talk more about that at a later date. for now i’m just happy to know our little jellybean is doing good.
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