breaking the fast w:
berries🍓& pumpkin seeds,
oats topped w some raw chocolate🍫 & a clif bar🍪
i don't drink nd's any more so it's really hard to suddenly make up 600 cals🙄 if you have any suggestions i appreciate if you could tell me💓 & have a good day💖
I do some freelance blog writing for therapists and one of our clients has been on a huge ed recovery kick recently...as you can imagine, i’m loving it. this week she chose the topic “5 ways to befriend your body no matter what your inner critic says.” seriously y’all, my heart is so happy...and not just because this article required me to do hardly any research. i could drone on about each of the bullet points i put together, but this post is going to be long enough as is 😏 so instead i just want to focus on number 2. ⠀
in treatment we had to participate in the infamous mirror exercise, where we created a list of 10 positive things about our body and then recited them in front of the mirror with a therapist. at the time, i thought this was absolute f*****g bullshit, and i completely disassociated from myself during the entire process (don’t be like me during treatment). i’m not sure what anybody else wrote on their list, but i do remember it took us all a long a*s time to complete them. i also remember being the second to last one to finish the assignment (shocking, i know) and once i finally did, i wanted so badly to clarify “i don’t like these things about myself, but i can tolerate them.”⠀
the only 2 genuine things i remember writing down were:⠀
1. my freckles (which came with a stipulation: because i inherited them from my dad)⠀
2. my fingernails.⠀
that’s it. that’s all i “didn’t mind” about my body about the time. i want to be sad about that, and don’t get me wrong, in a sense i am. but i’m mostly proud, shocked, and in awe of the blessing that is recovery. to go from that day 3 years ago to where i’m at now is nothing short of a miracle. ⠀
i share this because, if, like me, the only part of yourself you can stand to tolerate are your f*****g fingernails, that’s okay. i hope more than anything this isn’t the case, but if it is, hold onto it, and love those fingernails hard. because sometimes it takes just a fingernail’s width of strength to keep fighting.
Dinner tonight was incredibly and insanely scary and i was freaking out but i did not show it to my parents thank goodness. i had 8 poached salmon rolls, a cup of new england clam chowder soup, and an ice cream bar for dessert.
Usual #breakfast before my psychologist appointment was oatmeal, yogurt topped with apple and a rye bread with ham.
i just remembered that i was supposed to take my childhood pictures with me but i totally forgot to find them, oops! maybe i’ll take them with me next time.🤷🏼♀️
Super early dinner tonight is pork, potatoes and vegetables 🍠
its wednesday so that means weigh-in and therapy. the scales today weren't working so we used different ones and it said that i had gained a little bit but i don't know whether to believe it or not because i feel like i'm gained so much more than it said 😞 in therapy we talked alot about self-esteem and it was very tiring my psychologist even said that she could tell it was draining me by the look on my face 😖 overall i haven't had the best day and it has just seemed to get worse as the day goes on 😟 i hope everyone is having a good day today 💜
Chicken-avo-nut salad, anyone?🙋🏼
well, this has been my favourite combo for the past few weeks!
since i have started lifting heavier, i need more protein to recover dem muscles and make some gainz. so i am eating a lot more tofu, chicken, eggs, yoghurt, nuts and seeds. as you know, i eat a paleo based diet and getting some protein in is not that hard. whatever you do, make sure it makes you feel happy. listen to your body!❤️
Grosse journée aujourd'hui, comme tous les mercredis☁ petit retour sur mon petit déjeuner très tardif de dimanche (genre pris vers 13h🙈) des pancakes🐝 à la farine d'épeautre et recouvert de compote de pommes, framboises et un peu de granola. tout ça accompagné d'un smoothie avec banane, cacao, lait d'avoine et purée de cacahuètes😏 bonne journée🍁
I'm so grateful to have such amazing, brave and resilient girls by my side as we navigate our way through recovery together. it's not by any means a simple journey, but having these hands to hold makes it a lot less scary.
if anyone ever needs support, please know i'm always here. there are so many different ways to seek help. you don't have to battle your demons alone. they may have left your hands tied, but i will gladly cut the rope and welcome you with open arms into freedom because you deserve love, hope and recovery. 💜
i have my weight-in today! wish me luck!😨
i know i gained tho so it should be fine!
breakfast was increased again! 5g more cereal+ 2x my usual amount of almonds!😋
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