Out of the many aspirations i continue to work toward in my life - one of them is becoming the best husband, man, friend, partner, and supporter i can be to my amazing wife. ——————————————-
keep working toward greatness in all areas of your life! have an amazing day!
I was 21, about to go to central america for a volunteer trip. finals were approaching, stress was high, but i was used to it, until one morning i couldn’t get out of bed. i did the most natural thing that came to me: i rocked back & forth in the fetal position (something i did as a child) while i cried so hard, i hyperventilated. i was in perpetual fight, flight or freeze, but there was no life-threatening variable. i had my first anxiety attack.
the “attack” never went away - it just abated in minuscule amounts. i thought of bailing on my trip to central america and dropping out of school. how could i continue if these attacks were going to last? my doctor prescribed xanax just to get through my trip. when i returned, i was (what i call) experimented on. i took a litany of different prescription cocktails, but years went by and nothing helped for more than a few weeks. i was diagnosed with general anxiety disorder. basically i was scared as s**t for no good reason all the dang time – it’s exhausting.
the general anxiety does take a form of reason at times, like if i’m not working/studying and feel i should be. when i feel anxious, i am short or mean to people without realizing it. the subsequent realization feeds into my anxiety. i’ve even passed up job opportunities to avoid anxiety attacks. today, i advocate for healthy diet, healthy microbiome, exercise, meditation, and writing s**t down. organization comforts me, too.
i thought i was broken, that my aspirations died the day i was diagnosed. but it was just another obstacle to overcome - and i have! i still have days i’m paralyzed, but it's temporary and something i've beaten down in the past.
my advice: when you feel this way, write it down. when you start to feel better, write it down. what did you do, what happened that made you feel better? whatever it was, write it down. now, you have a tool box to turn to. don’t hesitate to add to it! xoxo - @silli_scientist
This week i will not be posting too much content due to working on content for next week. in spite of that to keep the positive energy going, i am giving you, my audience, a sneak peek.
book recommendation: there are no overachievers
Taken from the plane on this week’s trip to gibraltar.
those clouds look so fluffy and layered i found them quite beautiful... when was the last time that you really stepped back and looked at your business from above, with some fresh perspective? rising above the day to day churn to see the bigger picture, opportunities and the way forward once in a while is time well spent. it also reenergises us for when we get back to business as usual, the time out helping us to realign our actions with our goals.
#freedom can be #complicated, oh yes #itcanbe, at least until the gaps are filled, until #newhabits replace the previous ones. freedom can be aquierd in a split second, but refining the habits is a #lifetimepursuit. #oldhabits of #destruction will try and #findtheirway in #againandagain. destruction does not know #mercy, and it experiences #weekness as #aninvitation. it can look #cruel but like everything else it has #anotherside. #changeofhabit can only be prooved in a time of #crisis, the time when #instincts #takecontrol, and present the real #stateofbeing, the one that is beyond #thoughts, #aspirations, #hopes and well planned #responses. from one perspective this is the only reason we experience this #timespacereality: to #loosecontrol again and again, each time with a little bit more #awarness, #innerfreedom and #pragmatism. and if you're still #feelingbad about your present situation, #doyourselfafavor and look back, there's nothing there for you, right? all you can do is to keep going - forward, loving yourself for what you have achieved and also for what you're yet to achieve.
Since thanksgiving can make this week a bit hectic for some, stay organized and know what you want to accomplish. my goals for this week:
》amin stuff for my new job
》grocery shop as early as possible
》reach my daily step & workout goals
what are your goals for 🦃 week?