i love prepping food in a “buffet style;” large quantities that i store in their own containers and pair randomly as the mood strikes me. ✨ tonight’s dinner was on point, and this is legitttt the best canned fish i’ve ever had in my life. 🐟
What, no #selfie today? well, that would be just wrong. enjoy my face expression of an annoyed hamster.
btw, i seem to really favour this 2€ top from primark 😂 it has a few stains though because i'm a very graceful eater and don't drop food on myself at all. nope. never happens.
Happy #nationalsinglesday 🇺🇸 three years ago i made the choice to stop searching outside myself for completion. 😊 it has been a beautiful journey of self care, compassion, and most surprisingly love 💙 ............
............ am proud of this choice. 💯 embrace the freedom of knowing i am indeed enough. look forward to the coming years with giddy anticipation. the places i will see and the amazing friends lives i will visit. 😊💙💫
.......... truth is many of us with mentalhealth diagnoses walk this path alone. yet just as many find a companion. both routes are beautiful. one however is celebrated the other is often hidden and judged. take a moment this weekend to love yourself 💙
When things pile up it is hard to take care of myself. the stress makes me want to run around. quit everything and run. it also makes me want to grab a bottle of whatever and down it. those things don’t solve anything and they are very temporary. so i’m doing what i need to, taking meds, trying to get my rest. now if i can stop stress eating i’ll be doing better. that’s this week’s to take care of me goal. #bipolar#bipolardisorder#manicdepression#mentalillness#stress#breakdown#sobriety#relax#careforyourself#loveyourself #breathe. the other thing i do is get tats, which i’m trying to figure out which one and where. hahaha
I changed my life for me and got sober. i dont expect anyone to change their life for me, you have to want to change for yourself. i'm now 121 days sober. i did it without aa and tharapy. i think every day one beer wont effect my health. i know one beer leads to two or more so i walk away and have water. i'm in pain and advil isn't helping. i think i'll have a bowl of marijuana but instead i walk away and stretch and pop my joints. it's not easy but i'm surviving. sobriety is my choice i tend to stick to it even on the really hard day's.
any tricks you have for not doing something you want?
Preparing my medication for the week has become a necessary ritual (and has eliminated the possibility that i’d skip a day or accidentally take double the dose). i have a love-hate relationship with my meds, even more so now that the doctor has adjusted the dose and added a new pill to the mix, making it feel like i’ve begun treatment all over again. i hate that i’m dependent on them, i hate their side effects, i hate that they’re so expensive, i hate that i will have to keep taking them for the foreseeable future. but i love that they work. that they help. i still hope for the day i won’t need them anymore but for now i’ll take them and, as a smart panda once told me, i’ll take them with joy.