Thank you for all who i have asked! below is my post on the personal page... #repost@alyparsons with @get_repost
✨my god, my god, why have you forsaken me?✨ i never really understood these words till about 2.5 months ago, when this nightmare started... i miss my mom, everyday. there isn’t a day that has gone by that i haven’t cried. i see her in everything, and would give everything to have her here now. i am so happy she is happy and out of pain, but the pain is still there and always will be... there will always be a mom shaped hole in my heart...
when we got back from texas, my dad and i both decided we were going to get a full workup from a doctor, we are not taking any chances, no more surprises, no more nightmares... we thought we were good, we will grieve and then start this way of life... days before mom’s funeral we got the news- dad has cancer. i know what you are thinking, i thought it and said it out loud myself- oh god please no!
two days after mom’s funeral we received the hardest news- dad has stage 4 terminal pancreatic cancer, and with no treatment, he has less than 6 months.
breathing has become a chore for me. i went from grieving daughter to grieving caregiver overnight.
last tuesday, it had been exactly 2 months since mom has passed and dad started his first day of chemo. our lives have changed. this is my new normal.
i write this not for sympathy but for prayer. prayer that my dad has not only the will to fight, but the want to fight. pray that i have my mother’s strength to take on this whole new level of grief. pray for my family, as we experience a whole new level of nightmare, and all without our momma.
thank you to everyone has already called, texted, and supported us. with me doing full time care and not working, it’s gets a little lonely, and your support and prayer is the only thing that keeps me going.
for those of you who asked, the gofundme account (in my bio) is still active if you would like the donate.
i made a promise to mommy on her death bed that i would take care of daddy, and i have kept my promise. thank you for helping me do that. #cancersucks#cancerwarrior#pancreaticcancer
May this beautiful soul rest in peace 🙏🏾 i pray that her family & handsome boys have strength through this tough time. i haven’t seen niya in years but have been following & praying through her battle along with others. #niyastrong#cancersucks
Ginni / dry july 2018 /
ginni smiles, and she means it, but there is an unmissable sadness in her eyes. if you passed her on the street you might imagine she was simply having an off day, but it’s significantly more than that. ginni has a rare, complex and destructive cancer that began in her appendix before metastasising through her abdomen. eventually her medical team had no choice but to perform a peritonectomy, one of the most invasive, wide-ranging and complicated surgeries ever designed. her recovery from this was horrific, including bouts of pneumonia and lung clots, and it was six months before she could readily walk unaided. the once-spritely former marathon runner now moves slowly. at times pained, weary, worn down by chemotherapy, ginni is dis-spirited by the way that cancer has imposed fear and uncertainty while wreaking havoc on the life she knew and loved. her chemotherapy continues, but so does ginni, and that must not be overlooked. as she says, “cancer sucks”, but she is still here fighting hard every day. and remarkably, in spite of her cancer, ginni is still capable of such genuine warmth. her smile is all the more meaningful for the clouds through which it has to break. that is strength. that is resolution. ginni is an inspiration, whose determination is a shining beacon for us all.
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Today would’ve been my younger brother’s 36th birthday. loss and grief doesn’t get easier with time but it becomes more predictable. one of the hardest things is telling my boys about an uncle they’ve never met but remind me of daily. so today we took apart things, shot b.b. guns and got up to mischief because those were things he loved to do when he was their age. #cancersucks
I never win anything!!! i just won a new lingerie set! so excited. i feel a photoshoot coming 💋 thanks a million to @sense.and.enjoy !!! i love when lines realize beauty doesn't only come in one shape! they make clothes for us curvy babes, yassssss!!! oh and 15% of their sales goes to #cancerresearch !!!! go give em a follow, and check out the b***s on their page and their website, like right meow! 😄
Mri day... and visiting my favorite surgeon, dr. snyder 👨🏼⚕️. result = all clear 👍🏼 as we approach my 5 year mark, he is officially going to be spreading my scans out beyond every 6 months. graduation 🎓 into a new era. 💗💗💗 #cancerwhat#teamdacy#bringbacktherack