🔮okay, the initial three cards i drew were quite heavy, so i really needed to clarify this spread. this is the possible weekend energy, and my initial pull was the emperor rx, the knop rx, and the qos rx. i thought holy shit, who wants to k**l whom?!
❇so, i pulled yet another court card, the knoc rx, (lots of reversals, stagnant energy) and i'm getting that something has happened that has affected you quite emotionally. you are torn between grief and anger, are depressed, these two can indicate a lack of confidence and low self esteem, really just hating life at the moment. you could also be feeling very out of control and erratic as far as your emotions or actions, not thinking about consequences and acting rebellious and selfish, hurting others in the process of your instability. this could be the loss of a job, a relationship, finances, i'm feeling lost...
🌌your challenge is the 9p, financial abundance and success, being independent, taking care of yourself, feeling comfortable with your life financially. this could also indicate the desire to be single, and do it on your own, to free yourself from restrictions. to live your own life. but you may feel as though you are walking through tar. you can't see a path, you haven't figured out a direction yet, so you may be stagnant. the desire is there but the will is not. this knight is eeeeeons.....
✨i think this is a time to pay attention to past issues, reflect on what has not been working for you, and try something different. i hear 'cycle'. you need to free yourself from this cycle. stop repeating the same behaviors expecting a different outcome. if you want things to change, then change them. do you need to take your life into a totally different direction? ask yourself some harsh truths, stop avoiding, face reality, and accept your flaws and work on not repeating negative behaviors. don't be h*****n yourself though, accept that you are only human and we all make mistakes...facing these, accepting these, and changing things if necessary. we all f**k up, its owning up to it that changes us. #ghosttarot
"moving through the earthly fire,
to catch the object of desire." more bloody steam. is the fire here overwhelming the water and drying it up? or is it dying out and leaving the puddles to simmer?
sometimes my readings leave me with more questions than i started with.