Hi (: i figure it would be appropriate to do an intro post, so hello ! please call me m, i’m just a girl longing to be thin. please refrain from calling me names or anything, dms are always open and always welcome ! stay safe, everyone ❣️( also, i’ll be tracking my weight and what i eat daily in the captions of my posts )
Many hours later, personal statement for law school has been written. my god writing about accomplishments and humble bragging is f*****g hard. especially to do it speaking eloquently and not sarcastic or swearing. 🙄
it's now been sent off to some of my good friends to proofread and give me some honest feedback. also hate doing that but that's how i'll get the best paper, more input from people who are smart af!
also ate thai food for dinner, forget what it was called, but i picked spicy - it was not spicy in the slightest, had to add chilies, siracha and hot sauce. but i ate it, didn't purge, had my evening snack too - so all winning today recovery wise!
tomorrow i'm in an all day work meeting and then will probs go back to the library to fill out applications. i friggin love that place! i can get focused, bust out to music and get s**t done!
also wrote out my food logs for the weekend, including my 1 bp episode. f**k that was awful to write out and i'm sure it'll be more awful to talk about, but i want to put this illness behind me and recover for good. i'm capable of way more than eating and barfing as a stress coping mechanism, to put it bluntly 😂
heading to bed now i'm so exhausted and tomorrow is going to be a long day!
6 days to application deadline for canadian schools (and also to vacation) - coincidence? i think not!
To most people this may look like just a bottle of nyquil. it helps you sleep when you are sick. today, in the pharmacy i had a major flashback. •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••
in my worst anorexic days, i refuse to take this cold medicine, which i knew would help me feel better and get a good nights sleep, because i was afraid of the calories in it. i even remember one time i tried googling how many calories were in nyquil... i think back now at how absolutely ridiculous that was. but in the moment that's the only thing i was consumed by. consumption of calories (or lack there of). •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••
tonight, before i go to sleep, as i somehow managed to get sick for the second time in two weeks- i'm going to take that nyquil without even a second thought and sleep like a baby.
one of my best friends wrote a blog tonight talking about all the win's in your life. (@proseccoandplaidblog go give her a follow!!) so i'm choosing to celebrate this as a win for me. •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••
what wins are you wanting to celebrate today!? 💕