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Today i am choosing to breathe slowly and remind myself that self compassion is necessary. •
today i am sad. and that’s okay. i am reminding myself of how far i’ve come and how much i’ve handled already and how tough conversations and tougher decisions are just a part of life, no matter how heartbreaking. i will get through this and offer myself space to experience what comes up. especially through self compassion.

what can you offer yourself today?
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German pancake with pb, greek yogurt, and blueberries. really down lately, feel like i’ve gained a ton of weight and look like a beach ball.
#edfamiliy #prorecovery #fearnofood #edfamilyrecovery #edrecovery #fearfood #fearfoods #effyourfearfoods
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Dinner is 2 poached eggs with a roasted mushroom, roasted tomatoes and cucumber. tom has chilli and croquettes โ˜บ
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Sorry or not posting yesterday...
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breakfast {9:00}: havrefras๐Ÿฅฃ w/ almond milk, 7 prunes๐Ÿ˜…, half pear๐Ÿ, 3 strawberries๐Ÿ“, some grapes๐Ÿ‡, and banana๐ŸŒ, and cup of soy milk๐Ÿฅ› ( not pictured )
lunch ๐Ÿด{11:40}: brown rice, spinach broth and vegan meat thing ( i shared with mom so i ate about half of that meat and more than half of the spinach broth)
snack (1){14:30-15:20}: pear๐Ÿ, bit of crisps and cucumber ๐Ÿฅ’ w/ hummus and idk the name of that fruit
dinner ๐Ÿฝ {15:30}: salad๐Ÿฅ— the same as yesterday and half bread (not pictured) and chai tea
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#eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #loveyourself #recoveryisworthit #snacks #food
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Idk who i am anymore with the savory bfast kick i feel like i’ve lost my identity but dis was good so i’ll let it slide. smoothies and oatmeal i’ll be back 4 u!!!!

was supposed to get my last few volunteering hours for a class this morning but alas! it’s raining and was canceled so i’m takin it slow, going to the gym, and getting work done โœ….

[ 2 fried eggs, spinach, avocado, tjs spinach kale greek yogurt dip, and @yellowbirdsauce blue agave sriracha ]
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Cw: food, ed mention

i’ve been thinking a lot about food this morning (i know, what else is new), and i keep coming back to this ideology that food often comes dusted in guilt.
feeling guilty for that extra cookie or scoop of ice cream.

feeling guilty for not being vegan or vegetarian because you have a body that isn’t physically equipped to handle not eating meat.

being guilted for needing to intake a high sodium diet.
feeling guilty for eating, period.
i have an extensive history with eating disorders and, if they’ve taught me anything it’s that all bodies are radically different. we all process food differently, we all need different caloric intakes or different balances of food/vitamins in order to, well, survive. food shouldn’t be a source of guilt, it’s a source of nourishment and survival. the diet industry has kind of s*****d over that idea but the diet industry is such a deeply flawed and manipulative system of oppression as it is.
our bodies are the only vessels of life that we are granted. deprivation of basic human necessity can do such long term damage and do we have any reason to deprive ourselves besides what society tells us is “correct” or “right”? listen to your body when it speaks to you. take care of it, cherish it, nurture it.

#morningponderings #selfcare #selflove #foodisnttheenemy #edrecoverywarrior #edrecovery
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Cookies for my pupils ๐Ÿช๐Ÿช๐Ÿช hey hey hey, guess who's cookin' again. ๐Ÿ™ˆ
the last few weeks have been uber chaotic, with a ton of administrative and work issues, and they've taken their toll, making my stress levels spike, relapses started being a daily thing again, which s****d a whole lot, but i made it. i'm on holidays for two weeks, thank god for that.

the plan is to focus again on the basics of recovery to get out of the mess i've been doing, and also to get as much done for my classes as possible, so i don't get overwhelmed in november/december again because these first couple of months were incredibly difficult, and i found myself wanting to just give up many times. really do not want to live through that again. teaching can be straight up hard. i'm trying to find the rewarding feeling but with half of my classes, it's really hard to find.

luckily though, one of my groups of students are absolute gems and so i baked them cookies yesterday for our last lessons. cookies and poetry because i introduced the new theme for before christmas, and that's roméo and juliet. ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜
hoping it will go down well! quite excited about this ๐Ÿคž๐Ÿป
and btw, i used a recipe by @madeleine_shaw_ (same one i always use for choc chip cookies tbh) and my students absolutely loved them (and me because of them. perfect. ๐Ÿ˜) i blended half of the batter a bit more so the chocolate would melt a little and essentially got double chocolate cookies. oh and i added cinnamon ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ
#onestepatatime #onedayatatime #edrecovery #bulimia #recovery #recoveryisworthit #structuredeating #recoveryispossible #realcovery #baking #cookies #teaching #teacher #highschoolteacher #englishteacher #keepgoing #carryon #forward#believeinyourself #startagain #happyfood #bestteacher #shakespeare
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Full portion achieved โœ…
tomato soup with toasted bread with ham.
later on afternoon tea for sisters 21st
#iamnotlistening for lunch i had the full portion of tomato soup and toasted bread with ham. i am not having pudding until 13:00 when the grandparents come around for afternoon tea as this is what me and my mother agreed on earlier on. mother kept saying i should have two pieces of bread if i am not having a roll i said surely not.
lunch at 11:54 finished at 12:08 supervision until 13:08.
#itsnevertoolate #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #recovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #edwarrior #ed #mentalhealth #food #depression #anxiety #recoveryisworthit #foodisfuel #anarecovery #ana #foodie #bulimia #edfighter #strongnotskinny #healthyfood #mentalhealthawareness #prorecovery #bpd #foodporn #fitness #edfamily
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Always legitsterz to spend some qualitayyyy time with the very wise @mill_mo of @wellseek while sipping โ˜•๏ธ at the ever-fab @birdrockcoffeeroasters also— @birdrockcoffeeroasters (little italy location specifically) literally has the best cappuccinos i have ever had. i’ve held this unwavering belief for the past 4 years since i discovered them thanks to the rec of @titus_anthony . also got the most insanely good parking spot yesterday at br which was miraculous.
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Lunch was another @bootsuk #bootsmealdeal cant stop eating the amazing #katsuchicken rice bowl!! as i love it so much. full of lovely katsu style chicken with seasoned rice and mixed vegetables topped with shichimi and sesame seeds :) also had some @propercorn #sourcreamandblackpepperpopcorn which i haven’t had in ages but they are one of my favourite snacks :) not only are these #glutenfree but they are also #vegitarian :) afternoon snack was a bit of a challenge as i decided to have a thick and creamy!! full f*t #banoffeeyogurt !! fancied something cold and as i had frozen it i decided to just go for it! and it was lush one of the nicest yogurts i have had in ages!! it was so cold and refreshing :) frozen so well, tasted just like ice cream!! great find and so cheap from @aldiuk ! #glutenfreefinds #glutenfreetreats #glutenfreekatsu #glutenfreeboots #propercorn #glutenfreeproducts #easyglutenfree #healthyglutenfree #healthylunch #glutenfreelunch #glutenfreefood #glutenfreeideas #glutenfreequickfood #glutenfreeonthego #glutenfreemealdeal #bootsglutenfree #glutenfreelunchonthego #glutenfreeeats #healthyeating #recovery #recovering #edrecovery #eattobeatit
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This costume tho (๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿคฃ) anywho.... there’s so much i had to learn the hard way ๐Ÿ˜‚ turning 24 today, i have to share the most important lesson about myself i’ve ever learned: being skinny doesn’t make you love your body!
sure, for a few hot minutes of the day i was happy that i actually reached my “goal weight”, wore a size 0, and the abs to prove it.
but, for the other 90% of the day, i was criticizing myself like crazy ๐Ÿ’ฉ (and i’m not alone. my clients and students tell me the exact same thing โ˜๐Ÿผ)
it’s like you don’t realize what your body actually looks like when you’re so hyper-focused on every inch of it. it’s distorting, it’s unhealthy, and it’s called body dysmorphia. you’re not alone, you’re most certainly not a bad person for going through it, and most importantly it can be healed so you can have your life back ๐Ÿ˜ ...but it takes some work.
and the most important step forward you can take is to ask yourself this question:
what do you want more?
๐Ÿ‘‰๐Ÿผyour life as it is right now? (the one with obsession, criticism, anxiety, restriction, binging... etc etc? ๐Ÿคจ)
๐Ÿ‘‰๐Ÿผor the path unknown that leads to healing and happiness in the long run? (the one with deep personal growth, mental health awareness, ed recovery, and self love ๐Ÿ’•)
honestly, it’s your decision and i could never make it for you. but but but but...
somehow โœจi found it within myselfโœจ to take the path of healing ๐Ÿ‘‰๐Ÿผ and while you can see it’s not perfected quickly, sometimes i still struggle with my body ๐Ÿ‘‰๐Ÿผ i’m free from the majority of all the things that used to hold me back from living my best life ๐Ÿ˜Œ
aka, finding food freedom (free resources in my bio!!) has helped me to completely:
โœ… stop binge eating
โœ… stop counting calories/tracking macros
โœ… stop obsessing in the mirror
โœ… stop battling anxiety around food
trust me, life is more than food and your body babes, and when i look back at my close to lifelong battle with food and my body ๐Ÿ‘‰๐Ÿผ i realize it doesn’t matter how skinny you are. it matters what you think of yourself ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’—
ps i’m spending the my birthday dinner with my family eating hibachi ๐Ÿฅขand i have the #foodfreedom to actually enjoy it ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ
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Today’s afternoon snack was a mandarin and a barebells protein bar๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿซ๐ŸŠ i really didin’t want to eat that mandarin but i talked about it with my mom and we agreed that it was just my ed trying to take my life away from me and i can’t let that happen! so eat your food, you need it! dealing with anxiety from eating is hard but not eating will only make your ed stronger and make you even more anxious! eating a piece of fruit will never hurt you but your ed will!๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿผ
and also, i’m back at home! i had a lovely time with my mom besides my struggles and eating in front of athor people at restaurants was a much needed challenge because if you never challenge yourself you’ll never be free! ed was quite strong on this trip but i tried my best to enjoy my time there! eating is now hard but i’m trying my best and taking care of myselfโค๏ธ stay strong fighters!
#anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edwarrior #mentalhealth #mentalhealthrecovery #nourishnotpunish #food #fuckanorexia #fooddiary #recoveryisworthit
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Snackkkkkks ๐Ÿ˜ i had some cornflakes and greek yogurt, an orange (for the first time in foreeeever tbh), a fox candy and an options hot cocoa โค๏ธ that stomach bug’s still acting up and i got the worst pain right after eating this, but i know i can’t take a step back in my recovery because i’ve caught something, so on with the food it is โค๏ธ
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Ready for my friend’s party tonight๐Ÿ’—
not in the best of moods as my mum and i are just arguing a lot lately like we have today & the stuff she says can be really hurtful & it’s just so unhelpful with how i feel atm, i know it’s my fault too as arguments are a two way thing... ughhh hopefully our relationship can become stronger like it once was before ๐Ÿ™ƒ๐Ÿ˜….
#anorexiarecovery #anorexia #ed #edrecovery #edsolider #edwarrior #edfight #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #vegetarian #eatittobeatit #strongnotskinny #nourishnotpunish #edarmy #boobsnotbones #anarecovery #reasonstorecover #prorecovery #recoverymotivation #weightgainiscool #realrecovery #edfam #recoveryisworthit #makeup #nyx
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Blueberry smoothie & coffee to check off those mornin errands
my smoothie trick: keep adding spinach as long as it still tastes good ๐Ÿ˜‚
also may or may not have eaten forkfuls of @chickensaladchick while making this ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿผ‍โ™€๏ธ my morning hunger is always raging after a late night shift & there is absolutely nothing wrong with that ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿผ off to enjoy some fall weather jk going to run errands, happy saturday y’all! •

#bodypositive #healthyfoodshare #saturdayvibes #breakfast #smoothie #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #edwarrior #rd2be #bopo #eeeeeats #goodeats #foodie #foodforthought #feedfeed #foodfreedom #thefeedfeed #foodbloggers #allfoodfits #foodisfuel #intuitiveeating #haes #mindbodygram #instahealth #darling #lifewthliv
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