a question i got asked a lot after opening a question box last night, and let me be brutally honest with you.
i don’t. in fact in took me taking a 5 month “break” from being “on track” up until the last few weeks or so.
going to the gym 6 days a week & dieting for 3 years is hard. not only on your body but it plays with your head. you’re tested in ways every single minute of every single day, to stay consistent in changing old habits. some habits that have been built over 15 years or more. that is hard.
but what’s also hard is living my life overweight.
it’s hard not being able to move my body in ways that i want.
it’s hard not feeling fuelled by the food i’m eating.
it’s hard having no confidence in myself.
it’s hard feeling like i’m not showing up for myself.
that is how i stay motivated. i remember by why. i understand my intentions behind why i do the things i do. they are for me, and they are for how the rest of my life will play out.
it’s not about finding the right motivational people on social media. it’s not about finding the right quotes that inspire you.
it’s about you. what you want for yourself.
going to the gym and paying attention to your nutrition is a full time job. it’s hard.
Your value should never be impacted by what others think of you ❤️ no matter how hard you try or what you do, there’s still going to be someone who has something nasty to say about it. so you do you boo!
so just reminding myself that i *am* a megababely babe, as @heyjayyarn tells me, that if i can look at people shaped like me and see beauty the same applies to me and also beauty standards are subjective and enforced to meet the needs of both capitalism and patriarchy
Okay i needed to do one last #lipsticklook because i have to gush about this lipstick. it’s #redvelvet by @besamecosmetics and i cannot say enough good things about the lipstick itself and #besamecosmetics! not only is all their lipstick long lasting, every colour is so rich with just the right amount of shine and it’s not at all drying, which is a big plus to me! i have two more shades by besame, but i’d have their entire collection if i had the money! they’re my go - to lipsticks, especially the red velvet shade. every time i put them on, i feel like a movie star. #lovebesamecosmetics #❤️❤️❤️ #effyourbeautystandards#fierceandfabulous#bigandbeautiful
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