The look of a woman who did the d**n thing today (aka made money moves by refinancing my mortgage loan).
this year i’ve focused a lot on my personal finances—it may disturb you to know i don’t really have a budget! and never have. of course i budget for bills and things that need to get paid but beyond that, i didn’t do much about saving till i got engaged in february and y’all...this wedding stuff’s expensive. since figuring out a wedding budget i’ve had my eye on ways we could save and, well, quarantine has helped a lot. i started selling items on poshmark, set up a daily amount of $ to transfer from checking to savings, i’ve paid off a credit card balance which means i can put what i had been paying monthly into savings ... plus by refinancing my loan (4.75% to 2.99% interest rate) we’re going to save an extra $215 each month. like ?? this really jazzed me up tbh, and so far we’ve paid off 1/3 of our expected wedding costs. i feel empowered by making smart choices with my money that benefit me now and for the long-term.
There’s a lot of new faces around here, so i thought i’ll tell you a couple things about myself ❤️
i spend most my time working on my brand @loudbodies - we’ve got a tiny atelier in cluj napoca and i with the help of @veronica.tomos handle everything from designing the clothes, making the patterns, scaling them for every size, to drafting the fabric & getting it ready to be sewn, to wrapping packages, social media, customer service & literally everything else that needs to be done except for the sewing itself. it’s a lot of work, that’s why i haven’t shown my face around here as often as i used to.
i’m also not as active as i used to be since last august i lost my grandma, who was the light of my life, my childhood and it broke me. i’ve been trying to pick up the pieces ever since, but on most days i barely find the energy to get out of bed and go to work. grief is a terrible thing to deal with, but we all do at some point and i wish more people talked about it - make it less lonely.
i talk about having a business, i talk about grief, i also talk about how we shouldn’t allow society to put us into boxes, how beauty is not some sort of rent you have to pay in order to be allowed to exist in the world and how important it is to actually live your life to the fullest, whether you feel beautiful or not. time flies the same whether your jeans are size s or size xxl, don’t waste it. and your value? not in your looks. never in your looks.
there’s also going to be lots of books and cats around here - as i tend to pick them both up quite often.
but what i’m trying to do most with this place is start a conversation - whether it’s about a book, a cat, self esteem or depression, i think us having a conversation, seeing different points of view, learning from each other is invaluable. i want to use this space to let you know you are not alone. you are not the only one feeling that way, we’re all insecure, we’re all a little lost sometimes, sometimes not motivated & not getting anything done. we’re all in this together, sort of.
your turn - tell me something about you. maybe your favourite thing about yourself? do you have a pet? the last book you enjoyed? 🤍
Quando mi chiedete:” ma di dove sei?” non so che rispondere. non ho trovato ancora il mio posto nel mondo, ma so che dove c’è il mare mi sento a casa.
7 hours ago
It’s been awhile since i’ve done #fridayintroductions, so let’s do it! hi, i’m lanni! i’m 30, unapologetically queer, and i teach fifth grade. here are five facts about me:
1️⃣ i read constantly and recently met my 2020 goal of 100 books
2️⃣ my partner mark and i have been dating almost seven years
3️⃣ i am an enneagram type one
4️⃣ i am pretty skilled at most creative pursuits but i cannot for the life of me figure out knitting
5️⃣ yes, this is my first public post acknowledging my queerness - please be gentle. ♥️
These days, my social schedule may be closed for the foreseeable future but there's always plenty to be done around the house (like picking this cute bouquet ✿) #zennipartner also, my wfh schedule is packed and i honestly just don't have that much time to shop online, so bless u @zennioptical for the shop-by-color section that made it a breeze to find the chef's kiss mix of my favorite frames (clear and tortoise together!) - it's a match made in heaven. don't waste your time, you can go directly to the color shops at zenni (link in stories!) and find your frames asap :)
I think it’s time to retire the idea that every artful moment paired with a funny one or an outtake falls under “instagram vs reality.” the concept can make for some great jokes, but for some situations it plays right into the hands and tropes of the worst of the internet.
i try really hard to show a mix of the good, the off and the weird. i show skin texture, i show extra chins, rolls, lumps and bumps. because they’re human, they’re normal and they’re me. being f*t means that so much of the world will never consider any moment of my life a “highlight”. and that’s very sad, but that is not my problem, it’s theirs. my best photos are not lies, they’re not meant to sell you anything, but they are me putting my foot down that i see myself as beautiful and i feel empowered to take up space physically and virtually. my photos deserve to be shared with the world as much as anyone else’s.
i think i was about 10 years old when people started to sexualize my body. because i hit puberty quite early and devolved a big chest early.
10. years. old.
i still played with my stuffed animals.
jump to the age of 14.
only four years later.
puberty was, like ny chest, large and in charge. i started to play with makeup, hair, clothing like many other teens.
but when i needed help of our teacher in computer science and i needed to pull my shirt up, or try to hide my chest. because eventho i was just 14, i knew that the fact that he looked down my chest instead of my face was wrong and it made me uncomfortable.
strangers has come up to me and touch my chest against my will bc they "wanna feel if they where real". all genders, often older than me.
old men looks down my shirt and stares.
even though i uses bras that is supposed to hide and support more than anything, and even though i almost never show even the slightest of cleavage i still get looks.
bc a big chest becomes automatically seen as obscene.
i wish i can tell people who stars when my chest moves and i can't cover it with my arm, how i hate it.
how i hate people staring.
how it started when i was a lil kid of 10 years old, and never stopped.
now i stare back in the eyes of the ones who stares. but also, now they have so much to stare at that they don't know what to focus on 😅
a big chest is just this.
it's extra fat.
all of me is large and in charge. and my body is mine. you do not get to take a part of this if i don't give you my permission.
and when we are at it, gravity people gravity! i shouldn't need to say this but
It's rainy, it's gloomy, my lupus is kicking my ass, it's the last day of gish. it's the last day and because of the weather, i can't do what i wanted today for gish! it sucks, but i'm not letting that get me down today. despite everything, it's a good day when you can still wake up.
Did you know edmonton has not one, but two plus size online thrift shops?!
i know. how did we get so darn lucky, especially since one of them is run by this powerful human, and they're running a garage sale on sunday. check out @foundforusplus (run by nicole, pictured here) and @chubbyfemthrift for all the details!
during this time, i’ve learned that being alone is completely different from being lonely. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
i’ve also learned that it is super important to be your own best friend first. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
you’ll always be there. you’ll always know what you need and when you need it. no guessing or mind reading, it’s fool proof. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
i encourage my lou’s to continue to strengthen your “self-love” and do whatever you have to do to look and feel your best. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
you decide your happily and only you are responsible for it. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
be your own best friend! 🤗
I’m excited to be partnering with @maryruthorganics again and sharing with you all their b complex liquid supplement. do you need a energy boost? are you vegan and not getting enough b12 in your diet?...i only partner with companies that i believe in and mary ruth always hits the mark with their non-gmo, vegan, dairy free, nut free, gluten & wheat free, soy free, corn free, and sugar free supplements! oh and did i mention they also has a added benefit in this product for hair, skin, and nails?
🤎🖤happy saturday loves!🖤🤎
wish i was looking this fly right now, but instead i’m painting, assembling furniture, and sorting items to keep or let go.
cloffice reveal coming soon!!!✨
entire look: @eloquii #fulleefabulous
Setting goals for these next 21 days 🔥
this challenge will be a test for me as 8 days of it i will be on vacation 🛥🏝 but i already claimed i am not giving excuses. i will workout daily and eat right because my goals are more important than temporary pleasure of c****y food! so stay tuned!😝😎
The best things in life are not things, they are moments, smiles across the room that mean so much more than words can say. laughter at its purest, experiencing kindness, being kind. the best things in life are moments, what we make of those moments and who those moments are spent with.
how beautiful is our capital city of valletta?! 😍😍😍😍