Not gonna lie... i didn’t want to leave the house.
today. or ever. since caden’s been born. oh wait.. or maybe even before he was born. 🤣 #introvertproblems
but i guess it’s unrealistic to stay at home forever and even with no sleep loving making this first memory with brian and caden. we are headed to colorado for the fort collins fitness festival with @shaunt .
i’ve never regretted getting out of my comfort zone so we are off ✈️✈️. so far so good 🙌🏻😍. #firsttimemom#babyfirstflight#boymom#dadshirt#teamnosleep#lalabubaby
10 hours ago
We had a rocky week. we were told theo had colic by a few different people but made an urgent appointment with the pediatrician to rule out any illnesses. honestly at this point we were sort of hoping something was “wrong” so we could fix it 😔 it was beyond heart wrenching to hear him cry for hours a day, every.single.day. well, turns out, nothing is wrong with our boy. like, nothing. the dr gave us some tough love & told us something we didn’t know: theo is literally growing at twice the speed of an average baby his age. he’s gained 4lbs & grew 3” since birth! 🤯🤯🤯 basically, our baby is just hungry! he said babies are not complicated— they’re hungry, tired, wet, or need comforting. we need to stop thinking so much & use instinct instead. so we decided to try that & that night theo slept 1am-8am... i did a little bedtime routine with him, put him down & he started to cry. i told him i loved him & we were here but he has to rest now & then kissed him goodnight. then i left him in bed where he cried for about 10 mins (#same 😂) but miraculously, eventually he quieted down & fell asleep! 🙌🤯 we woke up at 7am & had a mild panic, like “oh s**t did we break him?! is he alive?” 😂 he was still.sleeping. he woke up on his own around 8:15 & all day we were basking in the glory that is getting 6 straight hours of sleep 🛏 and last night he slept 11-4, i fed him, then he slept again from 5-7:45! so the good news is our son is beyond healthy. the bad news is learning what makes your newborn tick is a very tedious process 😉 ...and we’re still figuring it out! these first few weeks of mom-ing are definitely the most challenging of my life. it’s seriously no joke! .
2 weeks ago
He's 4 weeks old today.
i can't believe it.
so much has happened in the past 4 weeks.
hard to comprehend i went from being insanely nauseous all of 2019, unable to even think straight 👉🏼to it going away completely within an hour of labor..
👉🏼to experiencing the most amazing, indescribable feeling meeting this little baby and attempting to comprehend that he is mine😍.
👉🏼to realizing i now live in arizona (now that my brain is back.. haha..did we move here?!?), 👉🏼to working on simply doing my best figuring out this "mom" thing and breastfeeding (holy wow--it's a much larger commitment than i could have imagined at 8 hours/day right now😳) and sleepless nights (caden is a night owl to put it nicely😂).
i have felt the full spectrum of emotions.
sheer joy. pure love. complete overwhelm. doubt. insecurity. desperation. i've cried many tears (happy and sad) in the past 4 weeks, trying to figure it all out while simultaneously feeling like a complete failure. but the best part is no matter how hard i am on myself, or how much better someone else might be at this than me, caden looks at me and calms every nerve. he loves me despite💙❤️💙❤️...
i want to love like that more. 💙💙💙
happy 4 weeks in this world, caden steele. i can't wait to see what's to come! 😍#boymom#firsttimemom#momat39#fitmom#imperfectmom
4 days ago
I can’t take enough pictures 🥰😭 @thethibaud said it well when he told me he’s not sure if theo turned a corner or if we did 🤔😌 we decided to do something radical & stop trusting the internet & take our pediatrician’s advice to trust our instincts instead. the past week has been a lot more manageable... still hard, but manageable ☝️ we’ve all been getting more sleep & it even seems that t’s crying has calmed down a bit... at least we’re able to soothe him a little more easily which is a huge win! 🙌 tomorrow he’ll be #6weeksold, he weighs 12lbs/5.4kg (🤯🤯🤯), he enjoys sleeping, eating, looking at the painting above our couch, & hates pretty much everything else including us 🤣🤣🤣 at least that’s what we always joke about 😉 question: when did your baby start loving you?! we’re waiting (impatiently) 😜 .
5 days ago
Well... here we go. 🤰🏻👶🏻 checked ourselves in last night after my water broke. today’s going to be a long day for us but we’re ready to meet our baby.
11 hours ago
Giveaway🥳🥳 anyone out there good at gift giving? ad i will be the first to admit that i am totally clueless when it comes to giving gifts for weddings. so, i decided to get my friend, who’s getting married, a @givehappycards bridal gift card. what’s great about them is you don’t have to pick just one store to gift, the recipient can choose from the six shops listed on the card. shopping can be a complete hassle and i decided to skip the stress this fall wedding season and go with the gift i know everyone can enjoy! #givehappy .
since i love @givehappycards so much, i am gifting one of you a $100 gift card of your own. all you have to do is
The last 2 days i’ve been all over the place. on tuesday we had a follow up pediatrician appointment for a weight check and found out ilyaas dropped percentiles and didn’t gain back as much as he should. after discussing the frequency and length of feeds we realized i was letting him sleep too long between feeds and unlatching him too early. i felt awful and couldn’t stop crying- in front of his pediatrician, the front desk, out in the parking lot. i’ve been fortunate to have incredible support these last 2 weeks from family who are taking care of everything-so to find out i failed to feed my son properly, the one thing i was responsible for, was crushing. over the last 48 hours we’ve been waking him up for feeds every 2 hours- if you include burping, diaper changes, putting him back to sleep it’s felt like every 1 hour. today was the repeat check and thankfully he’s gained his weight back 😅 i’ve never felt so relieved in my life- grateful to our pediatrician who showed me extraordinary sympathy while i broke down in front of her (sorry peds peeps realizing only now that you also take care of adults), my mama friends who reassured and checked in multiple times, my in-laws for taking care of all of us, and my husband for being with me every step of the way remaining optimistic and not worrying for even a second instead joking, “wouldn’t be the first patail man you’ve starved” 🤦🏽♀️ love that the dad gets to keep his personality while the mom turns into a slobbering mess 🙄 #parenthood .