What joy that fills my heart, when i think of how god's mercy and grace found me out💃💃💃 how he qualified me and found me worthy to be custodian of this wonderful gifts he gave me on a platter of gold🙏🙏🙏 their coming was with so much ease and grace.till morrow i cant explain what labour pain feels like, because i never had 😁😁😁 god so much loves me that, immediately i enter the delivery room, in less than 30mins my kids are out 💃💃💃 being their mum, is one of the best experience of my life
i return all the glory to you lord 🙌🙌🙌 thank for this wonderful gifts #mychroniclesofthanksgiving#grace#gratefulheart#withagratefulheart #withallmyheart #grace #mybirthmonth #godslove#mercy#pslams127#day24
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join @noscoyoga and i in the beautiful @pranicforest space in kensington this sunday, december 16 from 10-11:30 for a silent tea ceremony followed by a crystal bowl sound bath meditation. it’s going to be magic, i promise! ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
all proceeds are going directly to the calgary women’s shelter, as we wanted to offer people a way to give back this holiday season. also, we wanted this to be an intimate experience, so space is limited. follow the link in my profile to snag your spot! ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
see you there wild hearts
Some happy news. ✨ ten years ago today, i defended my masters thesis. it was the bleakest time of my life. i’d lost my father, my grandmother, and a dear friend to a freak brain tumor. i was sick with a mysterious autoimmune disease that no doctor could cure, in which my body slowly covered with strange bruises. i didn't know how to feed my body so that it felt good. my mind was weary and clouded with grief, my heart racing with anxiety, and my spirit heavy with hopelessness.
the suffering was palpable. i didn't know how to shift it.
on december 11th i stood in front of my thesis committee and defended my thesis. my voice shook and my eyes filled with tears, explaining what a victory it was to even be there — but dammit, i did it. it was approved with a few minor revisions. i walked away relieved, gutted, disenchanted, exhausted. nothing left to give.
a few weeks later, i threw myself into a yoga philosophy program. immersed in the study of yoga and meditation, i realized that learning to sit with suffering, to make friends with it, to meet my own suffering with compassion and grace was the key to finding joy. that program led to my dharma, my life’s purpose: teaching and writing about yoga and meditation. and here we are now. ✨
but that bleak december 2008, i walked away from academia. i walked away from "queering the market god: on eschatology and desire." i never filed it.
last june, when we were in berkeley, i filed my thesis. it's official. my masters degree in systematic theology, retroactively dated may 2009. boom.💥
i share this to remind you that your story is never over — and that your suffering can be your greatest teacher. it's never too late to pick up where you left off; to close the circle; to finish the chapter. i'm so grateful for every difficult moment along the way. it brought me here.
if there's anything i could say to that world-weary, grieving young woman, i'd say: hang in there, girlfriend. give yourself grace. make friends with your suffering. it's not the end of the story. this rough patch might just send your life in the perfect direction. 💗
But he said to me, “my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” therefore i will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that christ’s power may rest on me. 2 corinthians 12:9
at the cross i bow my knees
where your blood was shed for me
there's no greater love than this
you have overcome the grave
glory fills the highest praise
what can separate me now
for i have come to set a man against his father, and a daughter against her mother, and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law. and a person's enemies will be those of his own household. whoever loves father or mother more than me is not worthy of me, and whoever loves son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. and whoever does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. (matthew 10:35-39, esv)
truly, truly, i say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit. whoever loves his life loses it, and whoever hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life. if anyone serves me, he must follow me; and where i am, there will my servant be also. if anyone serves me, the father will honor him. (john 12:24-26, esv) .