The mercies of the lord are new every morning (lam. 3:23). we need to root ourselves in his goodness and mercy every day. we don’t need to plead with the lord to give or release his lovingkindness; we need to receive and walk in what he’s already given.
as christians, we know we are supposed to be in god’s word. it is where we learn about his character, who he is, his plan for our lives, his plan for the future. but i think it is even more important to saturate our mind with his word because it is so very different than the words of the world…the words that tell us we are the boss. the words that tell us we deserve to be served. the words that elevate self-promotion over self-sacrifice. the words that tell us material things matter and we should grab all we can to fill those voids in our life. god’s kingdom – which is intended to be here on earth – looks different. and the word is the only place to see what that looks like. if we only scroll through social media, watch the news, and read the latest self-help-you’re-the-boss-truth-is-relative books, we will miss it. you know what self-care looked like to jesus? it looked like getting away to spend time with god. if we only follow the flow of the tides around us, we will drift very far from where god wants us to be. and it isn’t to punish or constrain us, it is to give us true freedom, peace, and joy the world can never give us. he has the answer and it doesn’t look like what the world is telling us. the one who created us is the only one who knows what we truly need. 🙏🧡
We’ve been keeping a secret…but the cat (well really, my belly) is out of the bag! we are pregnant again, and expecting our rainbow baby in february 2020! 🌈
justin has been asking for weeks when i was going to share the news, and honestly i just wasn’t ready. i might still not be ready, but i’m taking my own advice. start before you’re ready. start acting like a pregnant person (i mean i have in terms of doing all the things you’re supposed to do/not do when you’re pregnant), but i mean more stuff like start planning for a baby to join our life and really start getting excited and feel ok about being excited.
i’m about 16 weeks along and so far things are going ok! most days are pretty good, but i will say that pregnancy after a miscarriage is challenging. it’s beautiful and amazing, and scary and hard all at the same time.
so, we’ll be over here and you’ll start to see my belly grow, and we’ll probably share more and more as we go. what do you want to know so far? would you be interested in what the first trimester was like? do you want to know the struggles of pregnancy after a loss?
and lastly, to all of you hopeful mamas out there and to those enduring a loss or losses…stay strong. keep hoping and believing. and i truly hope this isn’t just another upsetting pregnancy announcement, but a ray of hope. i promise to keep it real and share the real life version of pregnancy after miscarriage and life after a loss.
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