Let me just say that i have a love/hate-relationship to social media. i know i'm a part of it myself, and writing this post might be like if i who don't eat cheese, would try to sell it - ironic.
i hate how young boys and girls suddenly compare themselves to the world's best in their field, making them feel untalented, ugly, boring and unworthy. trust me, i've been there, but no longer. however, i do feel that instagram often makes me a person i don't want to be, and it makes me sad and quiet in periods. it's not sustainable and i need to change the way i have instagram. i need to base it on joy and spontaneity and try to care less. difficult when you suffer from neurotic perfectionism 😂😂
i hate how looks often matter more than musicality here. how musicians play music they know they'll get followers and attention from playing, while neglecting the music they love the most. it's just so sad.
musicians making success and progress seem so easy, when most often it's a struggle (i've talked to brilliant artists about this!!). there is so much more i could write. but: how this affects me? at times quite badly, although i know it's fully my own choice. i can sit at the piano for hours trying to record a video until i need to go home, with a stomach in knots knowing that probably i won't succeed in playing the piece well tomorrow either. i tell you, sometimes i've left school crying.
i also have a feeling of not being enough, as a person. i do want to be a good role model. i'm afraid not to perform 24/7 because i'm afraid of what you'll think, what i'll think of myself. i would love to be so much more. i know these are selfcentered thoughts; none of this matters; global warming, world peace etc does.
however, the amount of love, support, inspiration and connections all this gives me, is worth it. having your support means the world to me and if i can share my passion for music with people from all over the world, then i'm just happy. just happy. so thank you for existing and following my journey. i appreciate you so, so much. thank you and have a good day❤️🌱
Загнали с улицы заниматься музыкой. Недоволен. Ругает судьбу. И так уж раз в три дня подходит к инструменту в честь последних деньков отдыха. Итог безобразия: руки-крюки, интерпретация ритма в стиле «как бог на душу положит». А ведь играл эту пьесу хорошо 🤷♀️. Выводы ясны: любым делом нужно заниматься регулярно. Всякое послабление и жалость к себе приведёт к потере достигнутых результатов и, как следствие, всю работу придётся делать заново. #музыка#урокмузыки#музыкальноеразвитие#фортепиано #музыкальнаяшкола#musik#piano#musician #grandpiano#musicianboy#instapiano#pianist#musically#ilovepiano#pianist#pianolearning#8yearsold#pianist#casiocelviano#casio#ЕвРос99🐝#моймузыкант#маленькийпианист#тяжеловучениилегковбою#наширукинедляскуки