❎❎❎❎❎9.20.18❎❎❎❎❎ #currentlyhurting soooo.... this meme has been me af for a long while now (since june?) and lemme just say that i hate that it’s true. maybe it’s the loving womyn in me but i would drop anything for my lovers. i will plan my days/weeks, my whole life with their availability in mind. but that’s besides the point. point being that for almost 3 1/2 months i’ve been lying and cheating on my loving boyfriend of 2 years with some coworker who says but doesn’t really give a f**k about me. it was exciting and crazy and fun at first but as time went on, it just got even more complicated. and know it’s come to this... i’m not gonna make it seem worse than it was but cam has been begging for me to give him chance after chance saying s**t like “we could just hang out” “we don’t have to do anything let’s just talk” “i don’t wanna stop seeing you” and it all got to me and i caved. i thought maybe we could me cool and friends so i do go out with him and have a good time and if s*x happens then it happens. but at the end of the night he always expects sex. like it’s a given. and you know what? i love sex. but i also like to not have s*x all the d**n time ya know? and tonight i told him i just wanted to hang and watch netflix and get high but nah he ofcourse wanted more. even when i told him no plenty of times he stayed persistent..... cam forcefully tried to pull off my pants tonight. i had to struggle to get him to let go and had to kick him off of me. i didn’t say much just “wtf take me home” and he did. he apologized for making me “feel uncomfortable” but idk.... #itslateimtired#letsfinishthisconvolaterafteriprocess#nomeansno ❎-an.