Birthdays used to be one of my biggest feared events.
i remember when i was consumed by my eating disorder how i never allowed myself the freedom to enjoy going out & eat food without feeling damaged by all the guilt, anxiety & thoughts about how many calories i’ve consumed & how much weight i am losing.
i got so tired of food stealing away my ability to enjoy life & love myself; i got tired of it controlling every aspect of whom i was & what i did. so i made my decision to take my life back & choose #recovery. it is true it has taken me a lot of time & still is but i will keep going to reach it to the fullest because i know that it isn’t a glamorous process, it is uncomfortable & discouraging at times but it is worth it.
so on my 23rd’s birthday, i want all of you to know how thankful i am for choosing recovery & for everyone who supported me throughout all the way.
my advice to anyone who is struggling, please go & ask for help to be able to live your life & believe me you won’t remember that slice of cake you ate at your friend’s birthday but instead, you’ll remember how much fun you had with your friends.