On this day two years ago, 17 october 2016, i landed up in a hospital bed with some of my closest friends by my side because they were the only family i had in jhb. i kept begging my boss to call my mom and my aunt back in durban because i wasn’t feeling so well which he did and i started apologizing for all the wrong i’ve done..i thought i was going to die. i was stuck..i was convinced it was my last day on this planet. god and i had been communicating all night and this all seemed normal to me. i couldn’t stop writing the night before and thought it’s just my creative juices flowing...anyway luckily i had made a phone call to an ex colleague in my sickly state because her name starts with an a and appeared first on my phone and she acted quick out of concern to call one of my best friends who then in turn called my roommate. i was diagnosed with a mental illness, chronic, in the middle of submitting assignments for my course at uct and serving my articles..i remember my final assignment was submitted when i was in hospital and i passed my course with flying colours....my whole life turned around at this point. i couldn’t speak well anymore and i was a mere shadow of my old self. i fought so hard to get myself back...and i had friends and family fighting for me to be normal again and for the world not to know i’m sick...despite the remarks people would make about my weight gain not knowing it’s my pills that made me gain the weight..two years later and it’s funny how my life is. i was so scared, i thought maybe i have to quit my career and stay at home....i lost my independence and i had to depend on the people around me in case of a relapse...despite that bump on my road, i made it to my destination...i got admitted as an attorney, i moved to durban, got a job, lost that job, i relapsed in march, moved back to jhb, got another job, i got an apartment living on my own and the car. i’m just another example of the fact that you can rise from whatever it is that’s threatening your life and success. it’s all part of god’s great plan..my life ain’t perfect but it’s mine to love and live it to the fullest..#mentalhealthawareness#bestrong#beyou#bebold#mylife
Take 5 min of your time to check out some of my favorite highlights of @realjohngray#thetraphouse series on youtube! this is only pt.1 im on to pt.2 after this post! s/o @cooper22_ for putting me on. this message touched me and i thought i’d share it somebody will feel me ! _______________________________
the whole video is dope and about 45min long! that’s a car ride from the south side of houston to the northside with 45 traffic! that last video about #peace ! peace ain’t no punk! once you conquer the mind and mix it with some real faith the peace of god will guard your heart and your mind leaving you in a place where anything is obtainable! everyone has to work on cleaning their respected couch. hard decisions have to be made to maintain the cleanliness of our couch’s, but having true faith that god’s got your back will assist when addiction, depression, lust, guilt ,deceit, or fear presents itself on your couch it’ll be easy not let these things sit with you! now that’s peace!
_______________________________ @realjohngray will be at @lakewoodchurch tonight 6:30pm i’m pumped about it! man i just want to help people gain that confidence that we can walk confidently in the skin we are in & no matter what the world throws at us we can stand on our ten toes and continue fighting to accomplish any goal we set out on! that confidence is built through faith and uncomfortable situations! let’s be #richhinreallife! #richhmind#richhhealth#richhknowledge#richhspirit#mentalhealthawareness#peaceseeker#freethemind#anythingispossible#uplift#motivate#inspire#educate#entertain#inform#unite
Article: “depression in the black community is rarely discussed, this is why”
“sometimes black culture leans on religion so much that we let it replace other necessary means of mental health care.”
“instead of acknowledging what we go through, we allow our religion to lead us to bite our tongues for fear of "speaking bad things into existence," as my mother would tell me when she paraphrased from the bible.”
“except bad things were already in existence, and i needed to acknowledge them with more than just prayer.”
Our 'autumn' theme table has certainly been filling up 🍁🍃
i love this time of year with all the colour. with halloween and bonfire night to look forward to as well 🎃
boys and i have been looking at the foraging books, trying to learn what we can and cannot pick. i've organised a home education foraging walk with a knowledgeable local man next week in which we are so looking forward to and their friends are as well.
the thing i love about home education is the freedom of it. following boys interests is gaining them so much deepened knowledge which in hindsight is helping their confidence grow and looking after their mental well being too 🌾