i love how much lighting makes a difference. both these shots were taken the same hour in the same spot. different lights and modifiers used for different results.
edgy shot was taken with an #alienbee lighting the backdrop with an #einstein beauty dish above the model. the feminine shot was taken with a @paulcbuffinc#einstein640 with large silver umbrella to the left.
The weary traveller, 2018. •
i've gotten into the swing of taking charge of my own life, reminding myself of the woman that i have always wanted to be. i have begun giving her gentle reminders: 'stay tender', 'listen to your heart', 'go on and chase that growth'. i tried so many new things with this shoot. shot in a location that i wouldn't really have thought of shooting in, went to the shoot slightly intimidated, as i wasn't sure if i could execute with success. and as most of you who know me would know, i hardly ever photograph male subjects (i've photographed about 3 only since diving into portraiture again.) after having shot this image, i learnt something new, and realized that i'd completely butchered my subject in this image. and i've decided that that is okay. this is growth. there are little stumbles and flaws and failures, but it is all a part of the journey, and i have decided to share it with you, flaws and all.
what i find most refreshing about my process lately, is the fact that my images oftentimes create themselves. they want to be created in a certain way, and i surrender and let the creative process itself, take control. and it is so absolutely beautiful.
looking at this image, i am reminded of my journey through the past 3 years. of being lost, and forgotten. by myself, mostly. and now? i feel found. remembered. recognized. by myself. and that's all that really counts, right now. i have come home, to myself, a weary, weary traveller.