Firstly, i would just like to start of by saying that i bought a pair of size 10 jeans today. actual skin tight, non stretch skinny jeans. i’ve been flitting between a 10 and 12 for quite a while now (in jeans - depending on the shop) and today was the day.
so with success comes pizza - because that’s how i’ve decided to do this from now. i wouldn’t normally post a picture of a filthy meal like this but i had a brain wave tonight and i wanted to share it with you all. when i was losing the majority of my weight, i was very restrictive. i had to be because i had a lot of weight to shift. buttt i’ve come this far and now i need to be finding that happy place. the balance. because when the cravings kicked in this evening, so did my inner turmoil. i’ve been so so good this week and i’m very much in that ‘’if i eat this, i’m going to ruin it’’ mindset. in actual fact, i’m not going to ruin it, am i? because this is life. my life involves salad, vegetables, being cautious and watching my weight. but it also involves pizza, alcohol and kicking back. i worked hard for this and now i can actually enjoy it. i also can’t allow it to throw me off track because if i do then my biggest fear may just become a reality. imagine if i lost all this weight and then gained everything back because i allowed a few off plan meals to throw me off completely? imagine if i also tried to get philosophical over a pizza. oh wait. anyway, there was my brain wave. it’s not that inspiring but i know a lot of you who are close to/ at their target weight will relate. i don’t want to live my life feeling guilty about what i eat. it’s not sustainable. but at the same time, i don’t want to gain weight and i feel like this may just be the hardest part of my journey (ergh) so far. if you’re doing the same tonight - you’re living your best life and stuffing your face... it’s completely and utterly fine. we will just pick up where we left off tomorrow. because balance. #anotherdayanotheressay