So this journey is definetly not easy. the physical challenges are one thing, but i wasn't prepared for the emotional challenges that this would bring. i've always had body dysmorphia, but lately it has been 10x worse. i am also experiencing some intense hormones, and my face has broken out like a 13 year old girl 😂. however, i am very proud of myself. i will continue to fight for this new life! today for the first time in a month i was able to get in both my 70g of protein, and 64oz of water! i am thankful because my body has started getting angry at me for not hitting thise goals. hairloss and exhaustion are real ya'll! anyway...love each other and build each other up!! <3 <3 <3 #weightlossjourney#wlscommunity#struggles#gooddaysandbaddays#loveyourself#womenempowerment
Sometimes, forgiveness may seem like the hardest thing to do especially when the other person keeps causing pain to you. but living with anger and anxiety is actually more painful in the long run. we are told that forgiving the person helps with the healing process. it doesn't always work that way. you do not need to forgive someone automatically like as though that would make you feel better instantly. start by forgiving yourself first for not knowing better that the relationship would turn out as such. then forgive the situation. perhaps there were some lessons for you to learn through that.
✨i don’t have it all together.
i probably only have it together like 50% of the time 🤷🏼♀️ what’s that phrase ?? “fake it till u make it?”
i’ve been on the struggle bus since sunday with my anxiety.
but tonight i made myself a deal to let.it.go.
life is going to happen however it wants to and that is that.
so say it with me. .
it will all be ok 👌🏼
Recently i was attending a conference when one of the speakers began to share his story about domestic violence. he was sharing his story from the perspective of a child. when he and his siblings would watch his father abuse his mom, day , after day, after day.
it was so painful to listen to this part of the story. i had forgotten how many innocent young children are affected by domestic violence.
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Bedtime tonight is so rough 😭
i started two hours ago. everything was great. i got my two week old asleep and my two year old asleep at the same time. i moved them both off of me, positioned them, they stayed asleep. bingo. awesome.
then, i got out of bed. as soon as i stepped foot on the floor, lennon, my two week old started fussing. i put my hand on him with some weight, to try and trick him that i was still next to him, but that didn’t work. so i climbed back into bed and pulled out my boob, he nursed for a second then started crying. then yelling. then screaming. finally after rocking and shushing him, he stopped crying after about 20 minutes. then of course at that same second, my toddler sits up and starts crying. so then, lennon starts crying, i tell her to please lay back down and as soon as lennon is asleep, i’ll lay down with her again, so she starts crying harder. so lennon starts crying harder. she finally falls back asleep with her hands over her ears. lennon keeps crying. as soon as i get him to stop crying again, she starts crying. y’all, i just lost it and started crying right along with them. she fell back asleep, hands over ears, me and lennon crying, and i stood up and started rocking lennon standing up, downloaded a shushing/white noise app on my phone. finally get him asleep. put him down in the cosleeper. you can only imagine what happened next. 😭😭
in order to not wake libby up again, i took him out into the living room, turned the light off, put lennon in the mammaroo, and he laid there for a good 15 minutes while i cleaned up, drank some water, and started the dishwasher. then, crying, again. so, i got into the recliner, tried nursing him, which lead to more crying, and now he’s finally sleeping after rocking for the last 12 minutes while i write this.
oh, and my five year old has a tummy bug and fever. my two year old needs a bath, and i desperately need a shower. at least i was lucky enough to have a friend’s husband bring me a rotisserie chicken and premade microwaveable mashed potatoes for dinner, otherwise i wouldn’t have eaten all day 😭
regardless of the source of pain...whether it is emotional, physical, or mental...can always be worked through.
struggles challenge us beyond current limits and develop more strength through perseverance and hard work.
if you’re struggling today...keep going! everything i have ever fought through in my life, has always made me better..not inherently, but because i choose to do so. i refuse to let anything keep me from moving forward however i can. you can too!! love and hugs to you!! 💖
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Only few people have seen this face on me... this is my rebooting face 💪🏼 (features may vary depending on the climate 😏) if you have seen this it probably means you've helped me to get here, to this place where i am right now. i'm in a beautiful place right now (gosh i'm officially boasting now - let me get off this unicorn first 😏) and i'm lucky to have crossed paths with you. if not for you, you won't be reading this post to begin with plus there won't be a so called "kavi" here. unlike many i remember things very well. so my heart is with you freaks. ❤