I wanted to share this progress but i don’t want you to look at it as necessarily a physical progress yet more of a mental and emotional one.
it’s only been 38 days yes but that girl in the left photo is completely different than the one on the right. why and how you ask? i’ll gladly elaborate... that girl on the left was angry, depressed and tired. mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually and every other word you can describe that ends in “lly” 😕 i was tired of waking up in pain. i was tired of feeling like i would never amount to anything. i was tired of not being intentional with my time and just giving my energy away to people and situations i knew just were not going to benefit me. i was angry at myself because there was a time when i felt good and looked good and things were going my way. i was tired of comparing myself to others and their accomplishments while i just sat back and envied all of it. what i obviously hadn’t learned was that leaning into myself and committing to myself and my needs and dreams when things got rough and i instead pulled away and used it all as an excuse is what put me in the position i was in to begin with.
like that was my aha moment of how much f*****g longer am i going to keep up this same dead end cycle? i felt just as miserable as i looked and that was a huge eye opener for me. i had lost interest in everything. some mornings i would wake up, groan, go right back to sleep and wish i just wouldn’t wake up so i wouldn’t have to deal with the s**t in my life. i drank tequila, everyday. like 4-5 shots a day. it numbed the pain and the stress but black outs ain’t fun and neither are hangovers with migraines from hell. i was just in a head space that was spiraling down hill, quick and if i didn’t do something about it, it was going to get worse.
long story short - i knew what i was missing and it was taking care of me first. my health. in every aspect. i made the decision this time that i was going in and moving forward and i was never going to look back or fall back to that place i’ve fallen to way too many times in my life. (cont in comments)
First time for everything! 😍🥜 our cute little fresh grocery store has a coffee bean station, oil station, fresh oats station, etc where you can bag your own and take it home extra fresh!! well today i just discovered they have a peanut butter station 😍
they had regular peanut butter, almond butter, and i went with cashew butter. so excited to enjoy this extra fresh bowl of goodness next week! 🙌🏼 have you ever done this or something similar with different foods?!
Ta da!! this project was a little bit spread out but this past week we kicked it up a notch to finish it.
we bought this table from someone local looking to clean out their apartment before they move. it was all solid brown, a little scratched up, but we knew we could clean it up and make it new to us!
sanded + stained the top. sanded + painted the rest. reupholstered the chairs. sealed the top of the table. easy peasy! 😉😅 so happy with how this turned out and thankful for my handy husband! we both worked on it together but he deserves most of the credit on this one!! (except those cute planters, that was all me 😉) now...on to the next fixer upper project...😇
Saturday sweat sesh done!! even with laundry on the floor, and all the excuses running through my head after a late concert last night, still got it done. 🙌🏼 feels good to get the endorphins flowing and get that workout over with early in the day!! i know it sounds cliche but the only workout you’ll regret is the one you don’t do 👊🏼 make yourself proud today and move your body! you’re worth it 😘
🇩🇪 #tranquini positively relaxed. #tranquini ist ein #enspannungsdrink, wenn der alltag mal wieder zu stressig wird. zumindest ist das die information, die ich aus der produktvorstellung des tranquini positively relaxed drink herauslesen konnte. ich war heute in einem #rewe markt, ursprünglich auf der suche nach einem neuen mineralwasser und bin dabei über den tranquini positively relaxed drink gestoßen. optisch sehr auffällig gestaltet, war es kein wunder das ich sofort aufmerksam wurde. erst dachte ich an einen energydrink wie jeder andere, doch beim lesen der zutaten stellte ich schnell fest - man versucht beim tranquini getränk einen anderen weg zu gehen. doch was soll man von einem entspannungsgetränk halten, das als zutat #baldrian im getränk hat?
more news: https://wp.me/p2u9zc-o2 🇺🇸 tranquini positively relaxed. tranquini is an #energy drink when everyday life becomes too stressful again. at least that's the information i learned from the product launch of the tranquini #positively#relaxed drink. i was in a rewe market today, originally looking for a new sparkling mineral water and came across the tranquini positively relaxed drink. visually very conspicuous designed, it was no wonder that i immediately became attentive. at first, i thought of an energy drink like any other, but as i read the ingredients, i quickly discovered - trying to go another way with the tranquini drink. but what about a relaxing drink that has valerian as an ingredient in the drink? more news: https://wp.me/p2u9zc-o2 🇷🇺 Транкини позитивно расслаблен. tranquini - энергетический напиток, когда повседневная жизнь снова становится слишком напряженной. По крайней мере, это информация, которую я узнал о запуске продукта позитивного расслабленного напитка tranquini. Сегодня я был на рынке rewe, первоначально искал новую сверкающую минеральную воду и встретил позитивный расслабленный напиток tranquini.
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