This “blog” is dedicated to keeping up with my journey while i complete my novel. my book is a semi-autobiography about my life. this isn’t going to be some sappy, everything is wonderful, and life is full of rainbows and butterflies type shit. this novel will consist of brutal honesty, dark humor, mental illness, abuse, truth, and of course, the power of love. the purpose of this book is simple; i believe it will save me. save me from my wandering despondent mind that seems to constantly drift back into what was. the past is a delicate place. if you’re anything like me, it could be a comfort zone. a familiar place of pleasure and grief that you just cannot seem to let go. so many ups and downs that you want to relive, and yet, also wish to never experience again. my happiest moments are just that, beautiful memories. but the hurt i endured, i can’t seem to let go of. my mind often wanders there, and the hard part is snapping back into reality. to learn how to merely keep memories as such and not dwell on them is an art i have not yet mastered. but i want to. i need to. which is why i believe that letting people into the deepest and darkest part of my life will do just that. to force myself to remember every detail i have tried so hard to forget. every painful moment i endured, every heartache, every memory, good or bad, needs to be written. it will be a long and painful process. but, it is the necessary step i need to take in order to move forward, by forgiving everyone that did me wrong, and most importantly, forgiving myself • • •
this instagram page will consist of me posting a bunch of random s**t that i find pleasing to the eye. photos, poems, lyrics, etc., anything that helps me cope or simply feel something. most are from tumblr or some other form of social media (i will give credit where its due). if i post something that is my own work, i’ll be sure to mention that as well. i hope you’ll join me on this crazy f****n adventure i’m going to take you on. trust me, you won’t regret it.
I need to stop procrastinating and get my life (and this f’n book) together!!! instead i binge watch tv, sleep, drink copious amounts of coffee/alcohol, smoke, and eat c**p all day. post grad life has been my own personal hell. considering becoming a stripper for some cash flow.