Forgot to share one of my all time favorite shoots from last month. froze my b***y off on lake michigan at sunset with some of my favorite humans. it resulted in me channeling my favorite hero (always n forever) michael jackson. 🔥🌟💥 photo by @mackenziediane. styling by @nikkikunnen. hairs by @mattie_alderink. moral support provided by @kayliebienert. xoxo
I don’t have a lot of answers. i don’t know what to say when loved ones are hurting and lost. i don’t always know how to get out of bed when i’d rather stay cooped up in my house all day. but i do have a secret weapon: joy. y’all use your joy to fight. to get up on your worst days. to look your current season in the face and say “i’ve been through a lot of c**p but i have a story and i have joy and there is a purpose to all of this.” self care monday looked like sitting in the park in the grass (that i got in trouble for sitting on lol), matcha lattes, guacamole, and getting a big ole hug from the sunshine. remember joy wins. keep fighting for yours. we’re in this together. ✨
Spent the day frolicking around nyc lookin for chuck bass in my space buns🗽❤️ also if you are reading this: hold the people in your life close. tell the people you love that you love them. hold them lightly. hug them. give grace. life is so short y’all. so so short. remember that. love is so important. 📸 by my og back in the days where skating was all we did friend @baileysondag.
“i hope you keep going and your voice keeps expanding and your heart and your mind and your soul’s understanding. and together we prosper the whole of the earth cause we’re part of each other and that’s what you’re worth.” ✨ really special words from the one and only @dallasclayton. yesterday was a really special day because not only did i get to finally meet my favorite artist, but i got to hang with a bunch of strangers and friends and help paint our very own dallas clayton mural here in chicago. i love people who love big and wide and with their whole hearts and who use their passions to make people feel full of hope and light. dallas does just that through his incredible art and if you don’t know who he is please please go check his work out. he makes my 5 year old heart scream and dance always. yesterday was a day i’m gonna giggle about for a very long time. ❤️
I get on instagram and i’m like “what do i post i need to keep my homies updated on my life.” i’ve been to china and to texas and to london but that doesn’t mean everything is perfect. traveling is good but i still have to come home and unpack my bags. life stings sometimes. life doesn’t make sense sometimes and god didn’t give us instruction manuals but i wish he friggen did. i’m learning a lot about myself and it’s scary and freeing all at the same time. life has looked like a lot of tears that make sense and sometimes they just don’t. i’ve been sleeping on friends couches borrowing their toothbrushes because i don’t wanna be alone. sometimes that’s okay. i’ve got the best people in my world. i’ve been learning a lot about silence & that it’s okay to just sit with it. to sit in it. to bear it through. sometimes in the stillness if you listen hard enough- you can hear “trust me”. and sometimes that’s the only courage i have. it’s enough. jesus mending the brokenness is enough. he’s in this place y’all. so today if you feel like you are too much- you are not. don’t you dare let your head and emotions dictate who you are and how worthy of love you are. embrace it. i love you. (p.s. this is @mackenziediane’s & @kayliebienert’s beaut of an apartment. thanks for adopting me and loving me so well). ✨💅🏻💕
Recently the undoing seems to be a remaking kind of thing. the pieces that are unraveling seem to kick themselves into overdrive and start building themselves back up. i'm a walking episode of fixer-upper and it's kind of unreal the way growth just happens. i keep taking steps back trying to understand all of this mess and the beauty of grace. but it just is. you know?
i've had a couple of moments where i freak out trying to make sense of this season of breakthrough but maybe we're not supposed to figure it out. maybe it's not supposed to feel good. maybe it's not supposed to make sense. what if i'm just supposed to have palms up ready? ready to have the hard conversations. ready to have my walls tore down cause my foundation is crap. growth has a way of just happening. love has a way of just showing up. grace has a way of creeping in even when we didn't even think it was needed. and i feel like the only thing i can muster up these days is asking people who love me, "i'm going to be okay right?" and sometimes that's gotta be enough. sometimes not having it figured out and just knowing things are gonna be okay (wether we can see that or not) is enough. palms up babes. still find the beauty. run for it. never stop clinging to the good. we're in this together. / 📸 of the best day and the most unreal sunset by @garethpon
Do you ever just find yourself in a place and you are like "okay sign me up" yeah? okay same. i spent the past few days out at lake tahoe with the best @resortatsquawcreek and it has been unreal. truly. i'm gonna miss the smell of pine like no other. here are some of my favorite photos. they don't even do lake tahoe justice. ✨🌲✨
I've dared to start asking myself the question: what if all of this is making me more beautiful? just maybe...what if? what if my pain, my shortcomings, my failures, the things i hide behind, and who i am trying to be: what if it's actually making me who i'm supposed to be because i'm walking through it?
pain can be intimidating. don't let it win. sometimes we have to walk through. we have to have palms open to receive it. i've got to simply be. i've got to ask the hard questions. finding the beauty along the way. collecting pine cones and wildflowers and jumping in freezing water in lake tahoe. i dare you to look your season in the eye and ask 'what if this is making me more beautiful?' because i can promise you that it is. palms up. receive it. find the joy and the beauty among the way. 🌿🌲💕 rocking my @outdoorvoices always.
Hi. it's me! here are some tips if you wanna be a better traveler/ flyer. being a flight attendant, i get asked so many questions and i wanted to make a quick post with some of my tips:
1. wear your shoes to the bathroom on the airplane. for the love of god please wear your shoes to the bathroom.
2. pack snacks. people think you can't through security with snacks. as the snack queen, i promise y'all that you can! just make sure it's not a liquid one or else they will make you slam dunk it right into the trash can.
3. water bottles are 5 million dollars at the airport. why? i don't know. wish i did. but pretty much all airports have refillable water bottle stations. you just gotta look for them. help conserve plastic and save your money! win.
4. a lot of people are petrified of turbulence. i totally get why. but i'm not one of those folks. i live for it and it sometimes puts me to sleep?! yes for real. but i'm a big essential oil advocate and i really believe in carrying around oils while flying. if you ever wanna buy any or chat about it btw shoot me an email or dm! but get your hands on a good blend for you. lavendar is so good for relaxing and sometimes just inhaling oils while stressed and working is a game changer for me.
5. if your an aviation nerd like i am, the pilots flight deck is so intriguing and most people are too intimated and nervous to ask them to peek your head in. promise y'all that they live for it. so next time if you wanna talk to em, do it!
6. roll your clothes when packing. it's a must and you fit double of what you could by folding! my first blog is gonna go live next week and it's all about packing! yeeeeee!
hope this was helpful! fly safe! ✈️
Got to see bruno mars & it was a dream. danced my pants off y'all. and had the most precious event at @madewell where i got to meet so many of you precious humans. now i'm in austin and i'm about to eat all of the tacos 😍 hope your weekend is beautiful and full of love 💕
Last night as i was searching around trying to find coffee to stay awake, i see a crying mother struggling on the floor holding a crying baby and i immediately ran over and asked "how can i help you?" and she just cried. she was hurting and kept saying she couldn't do this alone.
i can't help but to think about what the people in charlottesville would say to that question. if we, you & i, had the courage to ask "how can i help?" could you imagine what they'd say?
i think about the world we live in. the brokenness. the hate. the evil. the racism. the bad guys. the people who say the believe in god & those with n**i symbols on their sleeves. that's not god. i keep searching for the words to say. @judahsmith said that we have to think before we speak, but we can not (we can never) forget to speak. silence is its own language. passiveness has its own voice; and i don't like the way it sounds.
so here i am trying to pull these words out of my chest, trying to make sense of them all. i don't get how people can have so much hate in their heart. i am a white female. i've never experienced discrimination because the color of my skin. and when i look at people, i don't see colors. i just see children of god. because that's what you & i are. we're all just walking each other home.
but you & i are the difference makers. i can promise you that there are good people out there. there are still good people left in this world and sometimes when things don't make sense and evil seems to be winning, we just have to remind ourselves of that. we can't look at the president. we can't look to government. we can't look to the people screaming racists slurs. we can't look at groups of people carrying tiki torches. the people chasing after love & change: we need to look to those people. there are still good people left and love is still winning. people that are praying, giving, walking, hoping, believing, standing, and yelling for the good. for the love to win. "darkness can not drive out darkness, only light can do that." and there are a hell of a lot of people out there driving out the darkness with light and love.