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the_missingink

word weaver, moon griever πŸŒ—βœ¨βœŒοΈ poetry e- book πŸ‘‰πŸ‘‰ https://www.amazon.ca/dp/B079H6W89Y/ref=sr_1_2?s=digital-text&ie=UTF8&qid=1517437206&sr=1-2&keywords=The+Missing+Ink
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@the_missingink

word weaver, moon griever πŸŒ—βœ¨βœŒοΈ
Roughly a year ago today i was diagnosed with severe depression, insomnia and anxiety. i was deeply in love in a dangerously turbulent relationship, and working a mind numbing sales job. i was an anxious wreck, floundering through my late twenties with absolutely no sense of purpose and crumbling under the pressure of “what i should do”. so, as i tend to, when i realize that i’m on a serious struggle-bus to nowhere... i intervened. i scrounged together my savings and i traveled. for three months, through central america. i met incredible people. learned to play the guatemalan hand drum. drank cashew wine by moonlight with belizean musicians. camped out in the nicaraguan jungle with my new travel bestie. climbed a volcano in el salvador with an armed guard. experienced some deep trauma and some deeper bliss. got dirty. got so, so dirty. fell in love with this beautiful, messy world. fell in love with *zero* men (a rare and much needed experience of self- vindication.) and when i came home, i got to work. determined to centre my life around creating meaning and doing things i love, rather than checking off a “palatably successful adult” checklist. i went to trauma therapy, and unraveled years of pent up childhood pain. i started teaching english online to kids in china and fell in love with them. i started working a bunch of food festivals and doing health and wellness marketing for some local businesses. i started getting way into yoga, biking and cooking. planned my next adventure. in short, i started looking at life as i should have looked at it all along.... as my one great chance. as one hell of an opportunity. ***
my life is not perfect now. i don’t make as much money as i used to. but, i make enough. i’m single, but for the first time in my life it’s because i’m waiting to meet someone who’s company i enjoy as much as my own βœŒοΈπŸ‘. i still struggle with down days. but, there is a part of me that is newly fulfilled. a part of me that only existed as a gnawing emptiness before. i am doing me. in every part of my life, i am doing me. and by doing me, i am doing others too. pardon the naughty implication πŸ™Š but you know what i mean! πŸ’•βœ¨πŸŒ
13 129 4 days ago

@the_missingink

word weaver, moon griever πŸŒ—βœ¨βœŒοΈ
This one is for all my fellow wanderlusters. for those who have sacrificed more traditional paths, stability and comfort, in order to commit to a lifetime of dusty roads. i see you. we don’t do this because “we’re so lucky”. we don’t travel as a luxury. we travel as a basic act of survival. we travel because we can’t not. because this nomadic path, this need for something greater, aches in us like hunger. because we stomach a deep compulsion to roam. to see. to go. to taste. to pick up our bags and leave. again. and again. and again. because the world is there. and it is wide and it is the most unanswered adventure. and we have to answer. we have to. greet strangers. get lost. get love d***k on the colours and the people and the music. we have to. there’s just no other way. 🌿🌊✨🌍 #travel #travelers #travellers #travelersofig #instatravel #writers #wanderlust #writersofig #instawrite #igwriters #writing #igpoets #poet #poets #poetsofig #poetsofinstagram #creativewriting #creative #quote #travelquote #travelquotes #quotes #igquotes #quoteoftheday #wordporn #wordsmith #spilledink #themissingink
1 100 2 weeks ago

@the_missingink

word weaver, moon griever πŸŒ—βœ¨βœŒοΈ
An excerpt from a new poem called “life on other planets”. 😍 can’t wait to share everything i’ve been working on with you soon πŸ‘ŒπŸ’•πŸ““#writing #writers #writersofinstagram #instawrite #igwriters #writersofig #creativewriting #poet #poets #instapoet #instapoets #poem #poems #poetsofig #poetsofinstagram #poetsofig #creative #lovepoems #lovepoet #quotes #wordporn #wordsmith #spilledink #themissingink
4 93 last month

@the_missingink

word weaver, moon griever πŸŒ—βœ¨βœŒοΈ
Hi pals πŸ‘‹ i don’t often post personal pics on here but this one was just all too topical so i thought i’d share (cafe with books on the walls, anyone??) i wanted to say hi because i’ve been lying low lately and the reason why is because i’ve been working on a couple of new projects. i’ve been writing a short film and a small collection of poetry and prose that i hope to complete sometime in the new year 😍 i’ve also been busy studying to work with newcomers in toronto as an esl teacher (just another way to apply my love of language and connecting with others 😍✨). i hope you are all doing beautifully and thank for you sticking with me during this slow season πŸ‘ŒπŸ˜˜ #writing #writer #writers #writersofinsta #instawrite #igwriters #igwriting #writersofig #writingsociety #writingcommunity #poet #poets #poetsofig #instapoet #instapoets #poetry #instawriters #writing #creative #creativewriting #prose #wordporn #wordsmith #spilledink #themissingink
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@the_missingink

word weaver, moon griever πŸŒ—βœ¨βœŒοΈ
Someone spilled pumpkin seeds on the bus and they’re forming a dirty little abstract. a lady in a rust brown coat sits beside them. stares intently. like she’s telling her own fortune on the dundas 506. a smile rustles on her lips. there are good things coming.

you put your hand in my pocket to hold mine, and somehow it feels like you are reaching into space. there is a sort of quantum leap here. a risk- taking. or maybe you’re just, actually, *taking* something. a crumpled transfer or a piece of lint or the tips of my cold fingers. yes, most likely those. you apologize for discussing global warming because it makes me sad. but i am not afraid of feeling sad. in fact, to be honest, i am afraid of not feeling it. i am afraid of most things that are not, in their own way, brutally real. and that is why i like you. because you are, in your own way, brutally real. not like global warming (don’t worry) but more like a blade that knows the beauty in cutting clean through.

i leave you and head home, lured by spiced tea and introspection. i feel good. i’ve barely slept for days, but i feel hungrily alive. brutally real. perhaps, i feel, somehow, less afraid.
#writing #writer #writers #writersofig #prose #creativewriting #creative #instawrite #instawriting #igwriting #quote #quotes #writingcommunity #writingsociety #writerscommunity #writerssociety #spilledink #wordporn #wordsmith #themissingink
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@the_missingink

word weaver, moon griever πŸŒ—βœ¨βœŒοΈ
I wanted to break out of my hiatus today to post something for #worldmentalhealthday. over the past year i have faced numerous mental health diagnoses. anxiety, depression, borderline personality disorder and post traumatic stress. i’ve been on an emotional rollercoaster and diagnostic one too. and during this time, i have hit some profoundly low points. points where it felt like my mind was a prison or a fun house that i’m trapped inside of. i suffered trauma as a child and it is only now manifesting fully. some days are unbearable. some days are good. some days are terrifying. some days are great. and so it goes. but i keep keeping on. trying to live as best as i can. trying to move forward. and i know you can too ❀️❀️ because you’re beautiful and it is in part your deep empathy that makes life so painful at times. thank you for being you, you are beautiful, even if you are hurting. #writing #writer #writers #writersogif #writersofinstagram #igwriters #instawrite #instawriting #igwriting #poet #poets #poetsofig #poetsofinstagram #instapoet #instapoets #instapoetry #poem #quote #quotes #quoteoftheday #mentalhealthquote #instaquote #igquote #wordporn #wordsmith #spilledink #themissingink
10 155 October 2018

@the_missingink

word weaver, moon griever πŸŒ—βœ¨βœŒοΈ
I was born into trauma. a “broken” home. growing up, i was more warrior then child. i defended and protected. when my father pushed my mother, i was the one, at the trembling age of eight, who called the police. my sister and i tucked my mother in to bed at night, for years, being careful not to touch the knife that she kept under her pillow. as an adult, i was left to navigate a world that felt at best, deeply and irreconcilably unsafe, and at worst, downright dark and hostile. i’ve become better at navigating this world. but sometimes, every so often, something undefinable (or perhaps identifiable, depending on the circumstance) sends me back to that place of fear and unease. a place where my chest is a clenched fist and the world around me (no matter how visibly bright and beautiful) appears to be dark and, sometimes, barely even real at all. at these times, this quote is at its truest. because at these times, i am scared of myself. scared of the hands that made me and the dark wolf that lives in me, asleep with one eye open. all of this is to say... if you relate to this, if you too go through pain like this because of trauma or for any other reason at all, you’re not alone. i’m here with you, and so are many others. and, honestly, that, at the end of the day, is why i write. and why i share it with you. ❀️✨ #ptsd #ptsdsurvivors #posttraumaticstress #writing #writer #writers #writersofig #writersofinstagram #instawrite #igwriting #igwriters #poet #poets #poetsofig #instapoet #igpoet #poets #poetsofinstagram #poetry #quote #quotes #quoteoftheday #quotesoftheday #instaquote #igquote #igquotes #wordporn #wordsmith #spilledink #themissingink
23 195 August 2018

@the_missingink

word weaver, moon griever πŸŒ—βœ¨βœŒοΈ
This is a piece from my first book of poetry (available in my profile!) it features short musings on life and love. my next book is in the works and will be filled with longer poems 😍✨ thank you as always for reading my work 😊 #writing #writer #writers #writersofinstagram #writersofig #instawrite #igwriters #creativewriting #poet #poets #poetsofig #instapoet #instapoem #poem #poems #quote #quotes #quoteoftheday #lovequote #lovequotes #inspiring #inspirational #quotesoftheday #wordporn #wordsmith #spilledink #themissingink
12 245 July 2018

@the_missingink

word weaver, moon griever πŸŒ—βœ¨βœŒοΈ
Hi friends πŸ‘‹ i have been quiet these days because i am working on developing several businesses and working on a book of longer pieces that are filled with light and darkness in equal measure πŸŒ—. here is one for you: dawn peels back the curtain
with nervous fingers,
turning you to gold.
you- tangled in the grey
ocean of this bed.
this shipwreck heart.
i have known much
of departures.
transitory meetings.
things that do not stay.
as much as i do not-
stay.
some days even i
am a purgatory.
some days even i
am the most
perilous escape route.
but still-
right now.
the way the light
hesitates. then-
suddenly-
the way it holds you
like it has been
waiting whole
centuries just to
set you on fire.
yes, there is magic.
yes, it is here,
in a quiet,
certain room.
9 104 July 2018